Just a hopeless thought..

::28-07-05::

“Do you want to talk?” she asked when she sat in front of me. I think she already knew the answer to the question and wasn’t surprised when I chose to say nothing at all. For hours we sat together staring at the surrounding around us as our thoughts shifted with the breeze. Every once in a while she would look over at me and smile in a way that let me know everything would be all right. Every once in a while I would look over at her and see nothing but sincerity.

If you asked me now why I was sad and alone that day, I couldn’t tell you. All I can remember is my best friend’s deeply looking into my eyes, with her soft smile, and the calm reassurance that turned away my fears. No matter what happened I knew she would be there for me just as she was then. A few hours of her time gave me wisdom beyond my years and the memory of her compassion in everything she did for me is one of the few that will never ever fade.

How far you go in life depends on you being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving and tolerant of the weak and the strong. Because someday in life you will have been all of these.

Never give up, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn

Fear grows out of the things we think; it lives in our minds. Compassion grows out of the things we are, and lives in our hearts.

When you begin to touch your heart or let your heart be touched, you begin to discover that it's bottomless, that it doesn't have any resolution, that this heart is huge, vast, and limitless. You begin to discover how much warmth and gentleness is there, as well as how much space.

How do you define a best friend?..

::28-07-05::

A story tells that 2 friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they hold an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything wrote in the sand: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE. They kept on walking until they found on oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowing, he wrote on a stone: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him,"After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?" The other friend replied" When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it.

Cheers!!!

My Desperate Housemates..

::05-07-05::

The episodes for Desperate Housewives finally premiering in Malaysia on 8TV, every Tuesday at 10.30pm. The most talked about, sexy and fun show of the year, is finally here! So there is another new agenda for me to put into my calendar for this coming months ahead. LOL.

Last Sunday, M - my housemate just came back from his hometown and bring a lots of durians to the house. So, last night, was like a party or should i call it kenduri for all of us - eating durians like as much as we can. Among 4 out of 5 of my housemate, MZ was the one who's durian freak everytime the season come. Oh well, did i say season?? pheww.. i don't think we have a season for durians anymore as everyday, anywhere on the street we can found someone selling durians along the roads... it has been a norm scenario these days to found durians anywhere, anytime, anyplace..dont u guys agreed? :D

I haven't tell you about my housemates did i? Well.. Let me introduce them.But what ever i'm gonna tells or writes after this is just from my point of view about them. After living and knowing them for a few years. So, if you mistakenly or purposely read these entry, i'm sorry if there's some miswording i put in here about you guys. This is only my sincere thoughtful mind about you guys from my own perspective.. my own perception... Peace! NO WAR!! :)

1. M - if u guys noticed, i had put some entries on M previously. M - comes from Muar, Johor. Get to know him since my pre-Uni days. But we get closer since we lived together in the same house since we're working. He's fun to be with and the best part is his knowledge on football is beyond my expectation. Sometimes, while watching football matches on TV, he could says some players name that's not even imagining on my mind.. and it makes me wonder, how the hell that he knows all those unfamiliar player names that's on the pitch...But finally i get to know that, he learned or get to know all the players name from the CM games that he played since his Uni days.. ahhh..no wonder lahhh...:P Another things about M, he's PS2 freak..hehe.. Currently he's attached with somebody, and based on our forecast, he will get married soon after all the evidence that we found on his car, his clothes rags and etc.

2. MR - He's my roommates. :D He comes from Kuantan, Pahang. And he's another bestest roommates i ever had after my old roomates OP got married last year. One thing about this guy, he's movie freak and fun person. He could watch a few range of movies from morning till night in a row. So, you could imagine how was it. :) he's also a person with a full of stories. Everytime he got back home, there's must be a story that we gonna hear from him and most of the stories will be a funny story happened while he's away. Like funny video clips gituhh...Class dude!!! hehehe. Above all, he's really OK. Just lately, he's rarely going back home. I dont even know where he sleep, where he change his clothes or etc. As long as he's alive and still remember the path of his "own" house, it should be fine. Bukan apa, just in case if something happen or etc, well, we need to find and locate him asap right?. So, En.rumets, please leave your contact number or location in case of emergency and please quit smoking if you can...just try k! ;)

3. MZ - The most richest housemate in town BUT Hmmm..well i dont think i'm gonna tell more about him. Let you ppl judge him by yourself if and only if u mistakenly get to know him. :D Oh yeah, know what??? we called him "interceptor"..Hahaha..Silly! btw, there's stories lies beneath from where he got that "title"..let it remains our secrets. But the best part of him, we can't even see him easily gets angry with all the jokes that we attached to himself though me and M always teasing him almost everyday. That's what we really respect on him. I think he can be another "Felix" but the Felix-AF3 is more emotionless than he is...:D Ohh nonetheless....he comes from Penang, just for information... :P Ok!! Enuff about MZ.

4. AD - He's mersing guy. Currently work at the same company as i am. Though, we're at the same company, i seldomly talk with him either in the office or home. Dont know why there's big boundaries between us or even a huge spaces between some of my housemate and him. How should i say or describe huh!..Well, frankly, he tend to isolate his life from us. But that's not a big deal for me as long as he's not disturb my life, i'll be fine. Just that sometimes, i'm feeling weird and awkward. Is it i'm the only one which he dont wanna talk with or it's just his attitude?? Just speak up when it is needed ?? or maybe due to something that i know about him, but then he knows nothing about me. Is that the main cause? Btw, it's not my intention to get to know about somebody life. I have my own life to take care of and why should i bother others life??. But the truth is, i get to know about anything that i got to know due to some reasons and believe it or not.. it's unexpectedly happened..i'm not asking for it, it comes to me by itself..... i guess it's not my fault anyway. But dont worry my friend, what ever i knew are safely kept and none will know about it though sometimes i feel its burdened me to the hell....sincerely, its really feels like hell if you're in my shoes....and please dont misunderstood nor push me to the limits with all the attitude or any kind of act that u're currently doing my dear friend..cause up to some extend... i'm really sickkkkk of it and GTH!!..... *sigh*