Work Visit 2 Sibu Sarawak

Yesterday, i had to rush to KLIA to catch my flight to Sibu at 8.50am.. about 10.50am, i reached Sibu and the work visit directly started as all the other delegations had waiting at the Airport..

This is my first time ever in my whole life.. i'm stepping down @ Bumi Kenyalang... I never been here before.. and yesterday... was another remarkable day for me to experience new things in my life..

besides it's part n parcel of my jobs and responsibility, i had been asked and given an opportunity to go to the ground and look what's actually happened on the ground.. this visit had teached me a lot.. and an eye opener for me to feel and watch with my own eyes the "real" problem/difficulties faced by our society...

We start our journey to the district of julau and pakan.. and pay a visit to some schools and longhouses in Sarawak. My task was to evaluate the status of current basic utilities especially the level of communications services in that areas and from there i need to propose what kind improvement can be done.. though its look like simple .. but the task was very challenges as i need to ride the 4WD along the journey just to reach the targeted areas.

We managed to to visit a few schools and longhouses yesterday and the working visit end about 10.30pm. It was a good experience to me as this is the first time i'm stepping into longhouses, my first time eating "ikan talapia merah" and last but not least my first stay in East Malaysia. What can i conclude from the visit was, it's a lots of things need to be done.. and it's really a heavy task for us who's serve as goverment servant and work for the "rakyat". Evaluating from the current status, certain things need to be review and certain things need to plan as we're now shifting toward the knowledge society by 2020 and this people can't be left behind. We can't afford to have a huge digital divide when there's about not less than 13 years from now to become "Developed" Country.. A few temporary issues need to be address first while we sort out the others.. with the limited resources and power which I had.... i'll try to deliver what ever i can in order to help this nation moving forward to reach its goal..

There're a lot of jobs need to be done.. but the question is.. am i capable and able to satisfy everybody needs?...

updates [30.04.08]: just to share a few photos taken during the trip to Sarawak..

I did it again!!

Actually, i just dont know what should i do at this moment.. i'm blank.. i feel miserable.. and useless.. i know it's wrong.. but still.. i'm back to my ol habit again.. and this time.. who shud be blame next? it's all depend on me.. so, i shud be blame for all my wrong doing.. just for 2 days.. i had finished it all the 14's... but how shud i overcome this?

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku.. kau kembalikan dan tunjukkanlah hambamu yang serba daif ini ke jalan yang benar dan diredai... Kau berikanlah hambamu ini kekuatan untuk mengatasinya .. Aku sedar Ya Allah.. ini bukan jalan yang terbaik dalam menyelesaikan segala kekusutan.. ku mohon agar Kau dapat memberi petunjuk dan hidayah kepada hamba yang lemah lagi tidak bermaya ini.. Kau kabulkan lah permintaan hamba Mu ini...

Amin..Ya rabbal'alamin..

Meet Ol' Fren.."OwN"

Today.. my job was quite challenging as i've to dig out all the past policy decisions made and to inform my Dato' SG accordingly.. all this while, none of the officer have the initiatives to get all the policies decision on the paper..the rationale behind it and etc...

i'm really dont know what happened all this while and how do they work, but then before the boss instruct me to compile all those things... i've done it earlier for my own references..and luckily, when my boss asked for it this morning... i've got it in my PC... BUT.. i purposely send the document to them a bit late as i just wanna see how the other officers will react on this instruction...

and..sadly to say... none of them react for it and dont have an initiative to look for it as well....*sigh* .. how am i going to work at this place for the next 2-3 years? if every single things they take it for granted... and i'm the only one who have to do all the jobs...arghhh!!!

the question is ..."what do they did all this while? takkan makan gaji buta je kot?.." i guess i need to left the office issues for my next entry perhaps coz at this moment... i just wanna create this special entry for my ol' long lost fren named "own"...

around 3.00pm, i received a call from own and said that he's at cyberjaya and wanted to drop by putrajaya for a while... it's been abt more than 5 years since i last met him... kira "jejak kasih" la jugak ni.. so abt 3.30, he arrived at my office and we went to my office pantry to have a chat there.. a lots of things have been brought to my knowledge and his knowledge too... own still the same own...like before .. he's one of my best friend during our uni time...we study together, eat together, shares problem, advicing one another and many more... he's currently on holiday for a month before start a new job at Tunisia.. before this, he just finished his job at Morocco and Algeria for about 4-6 months if im not mistaken... oh yeah... own now a freelancer... he work on contract/project basis with Nokia normally for 4-6 months period to setting up some client GPRS/3G networks... really kewl huh!! i wish i can be like him... but i'd too far away tersasar dr jalan yang benar...hahaha.. im no longer in the field of technical/engineering anymore...so too bad.. can't turning back as i've lost my technical skills long time ago since i worked at my current workplace...

before he left, he left me with some news which i never/get any ideas of it.. one of it is regarding my ex-gf during uni time had divorced 1 1/2 years ago.... goshh!! and the latest news was one of our colleague during our uni day just get divorced...OMG! how true the latest news, he can't really confirm abt it..but i do note that our colleague had some issues in her marriage lately... and i'm quite suprise if its end with sad ending...:(

btw.. life is like a wheel... at one time you're up there... and at time you're down there... but what ever it is..we must cherish our life while still can and make the most out of it...

cheers!

sejam@camp5,1Utama..

yesterday, i met mitho again...remember i was wrote abt her in my last post..

so, back to the story again...to cut it short...yersterday, me and mitho went for a wall climbing "tasser session" for an hour @ camp5, 1utama ... actually, the original plan was to have a small gathering attended by a few friends... but last minute (as usual)... all our friends can't turn up and left the two of us.... Btw, we still proceed with the earlier plan to try the wall climbing @ camp5....

to summarize....we really enjoying the climbing session till our hand get "shaking" and our arms + legs get pained.... but this outing session was the new experience for both of us (eventho we both had some exposure on wall climbing, absailing etc during our DPA course)... but the knowledge+exposure on "wall climbing" which we received at the end of the session was priceless.... huhu!....

we're really enjoying the moment, adrenalin rush and fast heartbeat.... :P this session also manage to bring us to recall back our memories when we went for outside module during our 6 months course (DPA la ape lagik :P).. hahah.. :D

i've been stopped from doing any outdoor activities whenever since i starts working in year 2002... now is 2008..(pheww!!!.. very long huh!!)

i started back doing so called "outdoor" activities for a while during my DPA course.. and after that, i never get involve into any outdoor activities since then as i dont really have any partners or friends who do likes doing outdoor activity anymore... coz most of my friends who's active in outdoor has got married one by one....

but lately, when i met mitho again..... wallaa!!... it's like u have found ur soulmate again..... haha :)
So, now.. i know who should i look after when it comes to outdoor activity.. ;) guess what!!... afterthis, we're planning to go for "white water rafting" pulak..... wooohooo!! syok je bunyi dia... hehehe....however, there's some difficulties on my side as i need to check back my schedule as i had quite a tight schedule for the next 3 months.... *sigh*..need to carefully plan so that i wont missed it again...

there's still a lot of things that i've never try yet in my life...... perhaps i shud consider to have "a list of things to do before i die".. ..like what mitho did.. . but again... hmmm... i'm getting married in less than 3 months... dilemma sungguh!.... passion vs time constraint... urghhhh!!..

A Memorable Moment with Mithochondria..

First and foremost, i don't know how to start ... i've been thinking so deeply either i shud write it here or just leave the page blank... however, i've decided to write it here as this will be the only way/place for me to keep all those memories remains ..

This time, i would like to introduce to a friend which her call signed known as "Mithochondria" a.k.a "mitho".... such a unique name huh!!.. but to be truth, from my perspective...she's really unique with her own way... How did i get to know her, how it's all started???..Well, i might say its a long stories ... have u ever thinks that someone can admiring or falling in love to someone just from the what he/she write/throw his/her opinion by expressing his/her opinion in unique and sweetest way.... can u imagine that? :D

i seldomly writing to the blog, but i do love reading some of the blogs and always been a silent reader .....

Ok lets go back to the story, i first met or shud i say... the first time i saw "mitho" was on the late august 2005 where we're in the same course... Since the registration day, i've been observing her but i do not have a guts to approach her at that point of time. Being an introvert perhaps, plus considering she's one of the "hotspot" girl in my group.... it was difficult for me to start a conversation with others especially those who's in other gender...

Anyway, after the short course end in mid of September 2005 and after getting our first posting letter, finally, i managed to get her "actual" name and start look up for her news/updates which ever i can even from far..... and being in the IT working environment for the past 3 1/2 years, normally i'll start "googling" any info related to her from the WWW and managed to get some info relating to her which is not supporting enough for me to describe generally what kind of person she is...

But when one fine day, i do come accross with the article/thoughts of her on someone blog mentioning about the meaning of "merdeka day" and "racial integration" in her own eyes/perspectives... since there, i had started falling in love with her... :)... i wish i can get to know her better and deeper one day but the problem is how shud i express this feelings to her? i cant simply go and say "i like her" am i?... its need to be express in a unique way.. isn't it?

to cut it short, after a few months separated due to different job places, we have gathered again and i'm really glad and thank to God that she was in the same group with me... perhaps this is what people called "kalau dah jodoh tak kemana..". My "doa" was granted when i was grouped with her in a small group during the outdoor modules in the first semester. We had shares some moments .. sharing our own perspectives about life, family..etc under the moonlight while people was sleeping but we're both just talking, talking and talking until sunrise.....It was the most enjoyable moment in my life and this memorable moments can't be erase from my life journal...... but still, at that point of time.... i'm still not have the guts to tell her that i'm really like her...

However, there's malay quote's saying that "ku sangka hujan hingga ke petang, rupanya panas di tengahari"....sometimes, what ever we wish for can't be granted perhaps for certain reasons.. and we have to live with "qada' dan qadar"... which the consequences to this quote was i get to know that a friend of mine have the same feelings to her too......or to be exact.... most of the guys in my group were also admiring her .. perhaps due to her character i guess...

ok.. going back to original story... when knowing that a friend had taken one step further by approaching her, i've made a decision to back-off .... takkan nak potong line kawan aite?... for me, if we love someone let it goes, when she's come back then it's yours..... or perhaps this old-fashioned approach is not valid and viable anymore?.. hmmm..

she was attached with my friend for a few months....... but unfortunately, few months after the graduation day... i heard that they both go separate ways... i reallly dont have a clue of what had happened and it's not my business to ask what had happened... for me, if someone come to u and tell u something about his/her story/problem...then only u can further ask for clarification... i also heard that she has met someone else after that at her workplace... so, i've made a decision to move on and i'm happy for her as long as i know that she was happy with the one that she choose to be her other half...

the last time, i met her again was during our friend's wedding at gombak.. she's still look the same... and still sweet as usual... but we just managed to have a short conversation..

Then.. last sunday... i met her again and we've shared a lots of things..... everything happened without a proper plan.. it was happened when i'm suddenly, just get my phone and give her an smsses ...and she replied... then we decided to meet up since its been long time since we both meet each other..... and the day itself, she's still look stunning except with a new hair cut.. before this, we never have the opportunity to meet and go out together just the two of us... but today was a remarkable day and i noticed that both of us shares a few things in common...from outdoors to even on the choice of ice cream ..hohoho...:P it was an unforgetable moment and an extra mile for my friendship with her... but sometimes i feel weird and awkward....

If i'm still single and available....... i'll propose her to be my other half at that point of time without looking back anymore... but unfortunately, too bad that i'm not single and not available anymore :P... i've already engaged with someone and within a few months.. i'll get married with someone which is i'm really loved and care the most now....... it's just a bit late and if she do comes earlier .... perhaps things would be different...

what ever it is, i'll pray to God that she would find someone that who's really care and loved her for who she is ... because for me, she's too naive ... i don't want someone to take advantage on her and hopefully she made the right choice for her "mr.right".

I just hope that the bonding of our friendship will last forever evonthough she's not in the same "league" anymore...... insyaAllah...

Better Late Than Never..

Hantaran Pihak Lelaki...

I don't know where shall i start .. but.. just wanna share a few happy moments in my life.. which i dont know if there's any friend bloggers who's still drop by here...

actually, its happened in September 2006...or to be accurate 16 September 2006... the same date with establishment of Malaysia... he he..

just to announce that i'm officially engaged... hmmm... :) looking forward to the big day and to be frank.. the "preparation" for the big day was very-very headache... too many things to think...to many things to figure out...too many thing to sort out..

btw, attached was some photos shoot during the engagement day...



Hantaran Pihak Perempuan...

Active or Not Active??

*sigh*

again.. i'm failed to update this blog regularly as i'm dreaming of...
btw, i just suddenly drop by again at this blog and see either its still exist or otherwise..
phew!! its still here... and not even being diminished..hehe

for the time being, i'm current occupied with a tonnes of works .. thats the reason why i dont updates <-- another unacceptable reasoning... LOL

hmm.. i guess, i'll try to update daily/weekly..but it's all depend.. coz i dont it to be a typical blogs but... to update a few event happened to my life , i guess it shud be ok sometimes... and i'll try to update it whichever i can remember...

till then, c ya again n sign off!