Open a New Leaf

3 more days we will officially enter a new year 2006 and I’m sure there’s a lot of things happened to us along this year. While some of us have start their year end plan or vacation to somewhere else, some are still here stuck in the office doing normal job as usual. Like past year, every time we reach New Year, most of us will put new resolution for that year.

So here I am, sitting in from of my PC, thinking ahead of what am I suppose to plan for next year. There’s so much unexpected things happened to me this year and I don’t want to make a list of it by putting all the details on this blog.

This coming New Year, I wish to have a simple and joyful life. I shall be concentrating on my studies for the next 6 months, so I don’t want to feel pressure on it. After grad on 2001 till now, it’s really a long-long break. I can’t imagine that I’m now back to school again. Go to classes , attend lectures , doing assignment, prepare project paper, presentation ..bla..blaa…is that really great??? Hahaha…yeahhh right!! You’re absolutely right… I don’t know either my tiny brain still working or not….Hopefully it’s working…because if it is not… and that’s it….i’m really in the big trouble dude!!

In 2005, I’d learnt and gained a lot of new experiences and ideas…meet new friends outside there or either in this borderless blogging world …. Some in a while, I miss all the day when I’m still doing all the technical stuff…but life must goes on and in life; we need a transition from one phase to another… and I am really thank to Al-Mighty for smoothing all the process and path for me to what I am now… and I’m always accept the fate.. Everything happened to us, it must be a reason… though sometimes it’s quite blurred.. but I believe this is what God had planned for me…

I’m not sure either I will keep on blogging again as usual after this, but I’ll try to allocate some of my time to blog and keep updated. Before I left, I just wanna wish Happy New Year to all the readers out there and stay keep in touch where ever you are.. Take care alrite! See you again in 2006… Cheers!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2006

Tribute to a friend..

"Kau pernah ku fikirkan
kita berdua harungi suka duka zaman sebaya
bersama mengejar impian
menuju puncak yg kita impikan

ku begitu jua
sering terkenang kisah kita
jgnlah ia dipadamkan
ikatan..persahabatan

kita memendam rasa
tak mungkin ku lafazkan
kita cuba mendusta
tak pernah kufikirkan
kita tak mungkin terpisah
itulah janji yg pernah tercipta..

lupakan kisah duka..
kita cantum semula
rahsia yg pernah terbina
dua teman yg setia
jgnlah dipersia
segala terjalin indah
tak pernah kita menduga
biar takdir menentukan segalanya..."

Hey guys!! What’s up? I guess..i’ve been away from this blog for so longgg…how many month eh?? Sampaikan a friend of mine asked me what happened to me caused I’ve been silence so longgg..? : ) thanks for reminding me nad.. actually, there’s a lot of reason I’m not updating this blog as frequent as before.. and definitely the common reason is “busy”.. hehe.. how busy I am pun I can’t describe it…but I am busy lately …and today, baru lah rasa boleh releks sket…

I guess all of you keep on questioning on why I put the lyrics of a song up there aite? Hmm... It’s all because it reminds me to someone every time when I listening to the songs …it’s reminisce me to some unforgettable memories….. But it’s all been history by now…

It’s all happened a few weeks back when I did received a wedding invitation from her…I am really sorry because I can’t attend to her wedding… it’s not because I’m hating her so much….No.. No… I can’t hate her ...but well, i’m trying before to hate her but I can’t…( it’s hard for me to hate someone.. )…and the reason why I’m not going is because I’m feeling really-really weirdddd to attend to her wedding….to see her with her wedding’s dress with some other guy… can someone understand how I feel? *sigh*

For anyone who can just go and see someone that you’ve loved before married to someone else, I salute you..…. it might be ok when you’re going to your ex-wedding ceremony, but for me.. it’s definitely the only thing I will try to avoid it… Don’t ask me why, because I can’t give u a reason..…if you’re thinking that was the most unacceptable thing I ever done or not being professional enough…. I don’t bother u and what the heck btw?? … because everyone has their own opinion to think and say anything they like rite? :P

And today, I would like to dedicate this entry to her… someone that had step into my life… though we’re not meant to be together ….. I shall remember our “friendship” and all the memories we had till the rest of my life …..because from her, I’ve learnt a lot… from her I learnt to be patience….from her I learnt to compromise…from her I learnt what is love is all about… I wish her all the best in her future undertaking and may God bless her marriage and live happily ever after..

Love is something you will always feel. You will always be able to show the one you love just how much you care for them. But no matter how strong love is.. some part seems to fail.. I loved, I lost,I learned..

Condolences to PM and Happy Raya to all..

Heloo everyone!

It’s been quite a long time since my last entry.. almost a week I’m not be able to update this blog..phew!..as always..i’m stuck with a lots of works lately…so, kerja mesti didahulukan ye tak? Well.. sedar tak sedar.. dah masuk 16 Ramadan hari ini..sekejap je dah masuk half quarter of ramadan… to everyone yang berpeluang melaksanakan solat terawih di masjid, sesungguhnya korang amat bertuah…as for me, i’m managed to pray at the mosque on early Ramadan only..i guess on 2nd to 5th Ramadan…afterthat, banyak buat kat rumah jek disebabkan kesuntukan masa ditambah dengan kepenatan memandu dari putrajaya ke PJ..so u guys can imagine lah how’s the traffic flow during this fasting month rite? ..*sigh*

Today, I was shocked with the news that wife to our beloved prime minister, Datin Seri Endon Mahmood died at 7.55am this morning at aged 64 following a lengthy battle with breast cancer that she had earlier. She is known as a soft-spoken lady and was being a huge source of inspiration for our Prime Minister. My deepest condolences to our PM and Families dan sama-samalah kita sedekahkan al-fatihah buat Datin Seri Endon Mahmood. Al-Fatihah.

Next week will be last week for us to work before Hari Raya..so, most of us will be back to their hometown by next Friday I guess...and I’m afraid I’m not be able to blog again before raya, so here I wish you guys have a safe journey back home and Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Aidilfitri.. Maaf Zahir dan Batin…

I’m going to PM residence afterthis, I guess we’ll meet again in some other time…if before raya, after raya lah ye…hehe..till then..take care guys! Cheers!!!!

p/s: to those yg nak buat open house raya nanti.. don’t forget to invite me aaaa?? Hahaha…

Boring Entry

heyyoooo!! :)

I hope everyone are in good health during this fasting month and in a good mood as well..hehehe.....jgn ada yg bg alasan gastrik la..itu la..ini laa... yadda yadda...unless you're really have gastrik and i assume that shud be ok la kan??... but have anyone of us notice that during fasting season ni lah, the rate of people yg mengidap sakit gastrik increase...hehehe.. ada tuh yang sehat segar bugar before this, suddenly dah dekat nak puasa tiba2 jatuh sakit and saying that they had a gastric...and the best part of it..siap ade medical certificate plak tuh stated that this person is confirmed having a severe gastric.. Dunia oh Dunia.. i have no comment on that.. terpulanglah ..because all this things is between him and God...so, malas nak pikir lebih2...

Yesterday, i had a fast breaking session with a bunch of friends at alamanda.. these guys was from the same batch with me during DPA. Previously, we've been posted to different ministries and scattered around Putrajaya and Selangor but yesterday we'd met again in flesh. It's really great to meet them again as everybody starts busy with their own job now. So yesterday remark my first gathering with them since the 10 days courses at ikwas. Before this, suma still boleh lepak2 and berenang2 lagi kat office or lib but now the flow of works are coming to us without stopping ok!!... hahaha...rasakan!!!!...

As for today, my officemate was on EL.Smlm aku yg dok bising2 nak EL, but today dia yg EL..hahaha...So, to conclude .. there's nobody that i can talk with thru out the day plus the YM was blocked at my office..Urghh!! Tension..tensionnnn..... I guess, today will be a boring day for me tho i've still got certain task need to be completed by the end of the day.

Oh yeah, this saturday i'll be moving out from my current house to a new house at Kajang.
Everythings has packed. Just waiting for the right time to bring down all the stuff to the new location...Sigh!!... I guess, i need to stop now...Kang syahdu plak tiba2... Till we meet again. Have a good day ahead and Happy fasting! :) . Sign off!

p/s: finally, i saw nad "live in action" at alamanda with her camera bag from far....:)

I was tagged again :P

Oh well,ingatkan tak kena but i've been tagged by aapitz lah pulak.. :P

So, to make her wish come true, here are some of the rules apply to play this game :P

1. Go into your archive.
2. Find your 23rd post.
3. Find the fifth sentence (or closest to).
4. Post the text of the sentence in your blog along with these instructions.
5. Tag five other people to do the same.

My sentence: "That gives a reason why i rarely take a long break/holiday..*sigh*"

This statement was made after i came back from a long holiday. My previous job requires me to be always in standby mode no matter what happenened or either i'm on a holiday or not. But now, it's been history and let me say it once more again loud and clearrrrr......it's been hissstooryyyyy!!! heheheheh... and i will never need to worry so much afterthis if i need to take a long break or holidays..:)

Since all the people in my list have been tagged, I would like to tag : Anne and Yna

Happy Fasting!

Heyya!!
I'm back again...sorry guys for the late come back... I guess there's still early and not late to wish happy fasting to everyone here..
Sorry because not be able to update the blog as frequent as before ..( haha!! mcm update ari2 jek pun..:P) . Lately, i've been busy with some works & meetings. So, that's the main reason why i'm not updating this blog for the past few weeks.
Now, dah ada kerja dah..so i guess, my time for blogging as usual will be limited. Nevertheless, i'll try to keep it updated as frequent as i could.
There's nothing much interesting things happened lately. My working hours is from 8am-5pm for this fasting month, but sometimes i've been working late till 8-9pm just to complete certain thing that need fast action. Oh yeah! before i forgo.. i will be moving to my uncle's house at Kajang next week. Some baggages has been transfered to my uncle's house and only few things left at my current house. It's been almost 2 years since i moved to my current house but now i'm on the move again. There's a lots of memories and things happened along the days and i shall be remember it till the rest of my life. Really gonna miss my housemate MN,MR,MZ and AD.. U guys take care aite!! and do invite and lemme know if guys are ready to get marry later!! hehehe.. i'll try to post some other updates soon coz now i've got another assignment that need an immediate action... Btw, This is just a short posting to keep u guys that i'm still alive... :)
So, stay keep in touch k!

p/s: if anyone of ya wanna to break fasting with me which the location is nearby bangi/putrajaya/kajang... just let me know or email me at misterkilroy@gmail.com.. Hehe..Taking care!!!

WaaHuuuuuu...

::23-09-05::

Hellooo..!!

Today wud be the shortest blog i ever write before.. hopefully!! :)

Basically, there's 1 thing i want to announce which is.. finally, after a long period of waiting .. i've got my posting order today.. Yippie!! and now, i'm officially posted to one of the department which is i assume the one that i've been admiring on for the past few days...haha.. but, first thing that pop-up in my mind when i received the letter this morning.... can i go through all the challenges ahead that is now waiting for me??? damnn!!

Sometimes, i'm still blurr on what am i doing right now ..*sigh*
just wish me luck for my future tasks and responsibilities... i'm eager to start working back as normal as i cud on monday...:D Hopefully it's all going fine. So, i guess, once i start working i shall leave this blog empty again....BUT, it's all depend on the workload that shall be given to me next week. If i do have some times.. i'll try to update this blog as frequent as before. Again, thanks to those who're still dropping by to this site...

Catch u later dude! Cheersss..

Weekly Report Updates..

::21-09-05::

Hello peeps!!
I just want to express my highest gratitude to those who're still drop by to my "boring" blog though it's not frequently updates day by day. As for today, since i hve not get any posting order yet, i guess i shud writing somethin' to this blog again..

It's really hard for me to start it as usual as i've been abandoned this blog since end of aug 2005... huwaa..it's been a long time huh?? Frankly speaking, it is not that my passion to these blogging thingy has end, it's just due to the some other things that need my extra attention for the past few weeks and that's the only reason why i stop blogging to this site.

Oh yeah.. i guess i forgot to tell ya that now i have geographically relocate to putrajaya...which is far from KL hectic life... Hehe.. and to those who wanna buy me for lunch ke or what so ever...just gimme a call ....you're welcome to do so...hehe..
At the present time, I will be attach to one of the ministry in putrajaya till end of dec 2005. But starting from jan 2006 to jun 2006, i'll back for my 6 month full-time courses somewhere in KL..

as for today, i'm still waiting for my posting order.. i'm still wondering to which unit or department i'll be send to. hopefully, it will be the best ever place i've been dreaming of lah.. hahaha...but wut ever it is, any kind of job pun will do , just that certain job might need me to learn from the bottom but that's not a big deal.. i had dealt with it before when i got my first job, me from engineering background need to adapt with IT thingy such as programming , bla , bla, bla ...hahaha... but, it's really fun and it teached me a lot at the end of the day.

oh ye...lupa nak mention gak... i might be moving from my current house to a new house which is nearer to my office by end of this month.. really can't stand with the hike of oil prices at the market plus tolls... so, like it or not i still have to move out and left my housemates behind ... it's really sad to left those guys who're been living with me for the past few years. I met them since my Uni day... :( But, i do belief, every single things that happened, it happen for a reason...maybe ada hikmah disebaliknya kot..

Oh well, i guess that's all for now guys. If i have something to share in future, i'll let you'll know through here absolutely!!... :D till then...take care! adios ..muchas gracias!!!

'What I Was Like' (* tagged by Nad..)

::10-09-05::

Perghh…dah lama tak online, tiba2 kena tagg dgn Nad dlm keadaan blur…but it was OK anyway.. ..lagipun I have no plan to write anything pun…though I’ve been away for a few days or weeks I guess, a lot of things happened in my life but still I have nothing to write on…no idea lah how to start it anyway….huhuhu… whatever it is, due to a request from a good friend, taknak lah hampakan permintaan sahabat yg sorang ni….so, here we goes my dear friend…I just put whatever crossed in my mind je lah ye…hehehe…haaa!! Baca..jgn tak baca.. :P

20 years ago : 1985 (I was 6)
hmm.. what can I reminisce was ..i’m a short black fat boy with a curly long hair. Hohoho..overrnye descriptionnn!! Hahah…. since I was kid, I am a quiet type of kid or an introvert type of person.. I used to play indoor rather than outdoor by that time… but I’m not a kind of yg jenis main solek2 or main masak2 ke…No wayy....please be noted ye! Takut nanti ade yg salah anggap plak kan… :P Well, how should I describe it eh? Ermm… I’m the kind who loves to play toys ( boy’s toy) but with my own way. How to say it eh???.. should I say I’ve been sooo creative and innovative during my old days..hahaha… ayat poyo giler!! btw, FYI, I used to play by myself with my own imagination… let me give some example lah ok?? .. hmm…to be short and simple…I used to play with small soldiers ( I had a lot of collections that time – plus its aircraft, tanker, etc etc…), small miniature car – (eg: hot wheels car, F1 car etc) , remote controlled car, lego and etc.
But please bear in mind , it is not that i’m not playing any kind of other kids out there like police sentry,galah panjang,lompat getah ( geezzz..LOL), batu seremban, etc… Cuma I’ve been exposed on that type of toys since I was a little kid. Maybe due to my kampung located at Singapore. So, to get those toys was very cheap at that point of time compare if we want to buy it in Malaysia. Because I do remembered, during that time our currency was in same values as Sing dollars. Plus, the toys are cheaper sell in S'pore compare to Malaysia. That’s why la, aku dapat merasa all sorts of toys during my kid days. Seriously, if you can buy a remote controlled car at 49.90 in Spore, but in Malaysia during that time it would cost you double the price in spore.Murah kan??

My circle of life during my kid's day was – morning : school day , evening : religious school, night : tuition class… standard lah kot dgn zaman budak2 lain I guess.. that was the primary activity until I reached 12 years old. By, 12, I moved to malacca, caused my parents worked as government servant. So, biasa lah berpindah-randah ni..kejap skolah sana..keja skolah sini...

10 years ago : 1995 (I was 16)
Leave MHS ( Malacca High School ) and continue my form 4 at MJSC, Muar. It’s totally weird (in the beginning), cause I went for a mix school again after 3 years in BOYS school. I have a lots of misscommunication with the girls but at the end of the day, it went alright... hehehe…
I had to admit that I’m not as nerd as someone might be thinking I am. I’m in the middle class between nerd and hyperactive student …so, in conclusion, kira wassatiyah lah kot…hahahha…but nahhh..i’m still introvert as what I am… talk less… but my favourite thing i'll always do until now was observing people…i like to observe people... ngehngehngeh…. Hmm...I never had monkey love (..but crush to someone tuh ade la jugak cuma I’m not expressing my feeling to them… coz my primary target was to complete my studies with flying colors…and Alhamdulillah..i’d achieved it….phew!! ). Like other people, I always spend time with my good and trusted friend, studying..chatting..complaining….criticising…..kutuking….and etc…hehehe… I prefer to stay at home playing PC games or electronic games rather than go outside , lepak tak tentu hala….but sometimes, ada gak keluar lepak minum with a few of my frens, main bowling ke or “tawaf” Mahkota Parade macam tawaf haji....Hehehe..

5 years ago : 2000 (I was 21)
Finish up my degree in MMU, Faculty of Engineering ( Multimedia Engineering). Still the simple and introvert type of person. Have a little social life but I was active in Outdoor during my Uni day. Frankly speaking, it was a tough year for me to complete my studies at that point of time. A lot of thngs happened during the years. My heart broken for the second time and this time it was totally broken into pieces Since then, my view or perspective to a person who so called “women” changed. Since that my heart was closed tightly. But lately, thank God..for opening my heart again and I’ll try to accept a women who’s trying to intercept my heart again…:P I wish if someone is meant for me at this point of time, biarlah dia seorang yang betul2 menyayangi dan boleh menerima diri ini seadanya…:P

3 years ago : 2002 (I was 23)
Working at telecommunications company, bonded with telekom scholar for the next 8 years of my life was really wonderful at first. I’ve start working with the telecommunication’s company since febuary 2002. working under IT department and deal with technical stuff for database and management reporting thingy was really amazing. There’s a lot of things I’ve learnt there. I come from an engineering background but end up in IT world. Can u imagine that?? From circuit theory to binary “1” and “0”. From zero knowledge about IT programming thingy to something by now, I guess it is not so bad. If we have an effort to learn, humble to anyone we deal with, ask for them to teach us in good manner, despite we’ve been place to anywhere in this world.. as a result, we still can survive at the end of the day and that’s for sure...

This year : 2005 (I am 26)
I had make a big decision ever in my life again. Today, I just complete my 10 days course at INTAN. Further more, I will undergo 6 months diploma course at INTAN Bukit Kiara, KL which will be starting in January 2006. Transition from private sector to civil service was absolutely a huge turn over for myself. Again my life has been reset back to zero again. I have to start it all over again. Sincerely, i have no regrets and i'm strongly think that i'm not choosing the wrong path or make a wrong decision... what i could say is, i can see the satisfaction and happiness that I look for all these while by joining the service. What i can see is the "paycheck" that i will get di akhirat kelak if we do it something with our full heart and sincerity by serving the nation and my beloved country. Whatever paths we take, whatever things we choose, the most important thing was our “nawaitu” and it must be right…rite? :)

Though I realized , the pay is lesser than what I ‘ve gotten in the telco’s company but my only intention was i wanna serve people as what both my parents did. That was only my primary intention. FYI, Both of my parents was in civil services and from my own observation, i could see their happiness and satisfaction while doing their job since I was kid...Walaupun kitaorg tak kaya or tak berharta sangat like anyone else, but we're really happy with our lives. Itulah yang dinamakan keberkatan hidup perhaps. Since then, i'm looking for something that i can contribute something to someone else. I never told or spoke to anyone about it before this But today i guess i should share it with all of you of why i made a decision to join the government service.

After a long discussion with both my parents, they said if i am really want to contribute something, they proposed me to join government ( because there's only one reason : we work for the “rakyat” ) . But to make this dream come true, I need to realize and rationalize it. I need to sacrifice a lot of things in term of gaji especially which is gaji private is not same as gaji org keja gomen and i must be better than both my parents did... and that is the condition they put on me if I’m ready to serve for the country. Finally, here I am, i'm choosing PTD for my new life, my new career. And this is also the answer, why I’ve been away for the past few weeks…bukan kena kidnap or apa2…don’t worry… I’m still here cuma I can’t be online as frequent as before..please don’t misunderstood what I means, I’m not saying that other job was not playing their role to contribute to the country or nation, for example like teachers pun menyumbang kepada negara jugak in term of pembangunan insan dan sumber manusia, but by servicing with government, I shall say that I can contribute directly to my nation and country in term of memperkemaskan lagi dasar2 yang sedia ada bagi kesejahteraan rakyat secara amnya....insyaAllah. and anyone or every each one of us will play their own roles in order to give something to their own beloved country at the end of the day.. either you’re in private or in government sector, we’ll have our own responsibility.. Cuma the only different was the roles, power and limitation that you had in order to drive the country to be a better place for living in future.

Next year : 2006 (I will be 27)
Not planning anything yet, but I’m looking forward to successfully complete my DPA course next year insyaAllah so that I can serve better with all the knowledge I would gain from the 6-month course. I am also looking for a right candidate ( ehem..ehem..ehem..) to be my long life partner latest by 28 yrs old…hahaha.. Poyo tahap dewa!! :P because, to build a strong marital institution, definitely need a good and strong relationship and mutual understanding from both party rite?

10 years from now : 2015 (I will be 36, InsyaAllah)
Hopefully, I’m happily married by then and have kids( maybe 2-3 kids by that time..hehe ). Still working in the government sector, serving my nation but don’t know where I will be post in future…. Apa2 pun, my intention only one – dapat “Berkhidmat Untuk Negara” selagi hayat dikandung badan and dapat melihat dan menyaksikan Malaysia menjadi negara maju by year 2020 - Insyaallah..

And now I'd like to TAG Yna and Anne pulak. hehehe…:P

Last Words..

Dear Bosses, colleagues & friends,

It has been 3 years, 6 months since I have worked with XXX and YYY. As the saying goes all good things must come to an end. This journey of mine has come to an end as i embark on a new journey in life, I would take with me all the fondest memories in YYY.

I would like to take this opportunity to thank all of you for the guidance, support, cooperation, help, favors, personal growth, etc; it has afforded me. I appreciate all your personal and professional advice over the years. It’s my hope that we will stay in touch as I begin this new chapter in my life.

It has been wonderful working with all of you in this fine organization. The valuable experience and skills that I've gained here will be useful throughout my career and my life. I cannot say enough wonderful things about YYY, about all the people I’ve encountered in my years of service with the company, and especially my team members in Business Applications Dept.

I would also like to apologize for my shortcoming and any inconvenience that I might have caused anytime during my job here.

Last but not least, to all that have I worked with , God Bless and Wish you the very Best in Life.

Keep in Touch.

Good Bye.

Waiting for Now..

Pic courtesy of http://www.explodingdog.com

::17-08-05::

It’s been so long since my last entry, im soooo sorry guys for not updating this site.. Biaser ler….busy beb….anak aunty bad…..memang busy sokmo…..hehehe….. However, here I am…I’m back again but for a while…..why am I saying for a “while??” Hmm……actually, there’s a reason on every single things that I’ve said lately….but first and foremost…just nak update my circle of life for the past few weeks or should I say for the past few days huh?? :P

Whooaaaa!!!….banyak giler nak update kalau nak diikut-ikutkan…but..tak tau mana nak start…I’m lostttt to keep track apa yg aku dah buat lately….hmmm…I try to recall back what I’ve done lately….. But I do remember, last few weeks, I took an emergency leave for 3 days and went for medical checkup at Klinik Kesihatan…The process to complete all the med-checkup from the urine test, x-ray bla bla bla ....only took me a day …so the other 2 days tuh kire bonus laaa...hehehe…

Lately I’ve been busy with my office works….but the good news is, I’ve done with my handover documents yesterday….wargghhhhh!!! im sooo happy and feel soooo relief…..hehehe… finally, I’ve complete all the things that need my serious attention and commitment at the end of the day…yeay!!! But that is one thing, others than the documents thingy that makes me feel so sick and felt like hell to complete it…..i had also finished with my handover session with my colleagues…hohohohoooo……..warrghhh!! Finally, i don’t have to pay so much attention on my current hectic worklife anymore…yeeehaaaa!!!

Above all, I’ve only left about 7 working days to work with this company by the end of this month :D and by 29th Aug 2005….my new life….my new beginning …and my journey through out this life would start all over again….. Is that sooo great huh??? Or should I say is that feel so scary?? hmmmmm…but one thing for sure…I can feel the excitement in my adrenalin to start my new career by now… .hehehe

12 days more to go… it’s a drastic change when you finally decided to leave your current lifestyle and start entering a new lifestyle ……but I do noted …there’s always pros and cons on every move or any decision we’ve done… I hope it would be a great decision-making I ever made in my life and hoping all would go smooth and fine at the end of the day…Though my new job would be different from what I’d done for the past few years, I hope I could acclimatize it fast…Sincerely, I don’t expect to get an offer to this new job cause it’s totally different from my current job that I’m doing now…..but what I’ve been thinking, maybe this is what God has prepared for me for my patience and difficulties that I’ve gone thru all this while….it’s really pay-off …. Aku bersyukur kehadrat Illahi atas limpah nikmat dan kurniaNya….: )

Last but not least, to a dear friend F, thanks for your support and wishes yeah….:P akan ku kenang sepanjang hayat ku ini kata2 mu itu…..:P....don’t worry lah….I wont forget u…we’ve been my friend since primary school ok!!…dah macam bantal busuk dahhhhhh..…hehehe….anyway, it’s good to have someone like you as part of my life….

Just a hopeless thought..

::28-07-05::

“Do you want to talk?” she asked when she sat in front of me. I think she already knew the answer to the question and wasn’t surprised when I chose to say nothing at all. For hours we sat together staring at the surrounding around us as our thoughts shifted with the breeze. Every once in a while she would look over at me and smile in a way that let me know everything would be all right. Every once in a while I would look over at her and see nothing but sincerity.

If you asked me now why I was sad and alone that day, I couldn’t tell you. All I can remember is my best friend’s deeply looking into my eyes, with her soft smile, and the calm reassurance that turned away my fears. No matter what happened I knew she would be there for me just as she was then. A few hours of her time gave me wisdom beyond my years and the memory of her compassion in everything she did for me is one of the few that will never ever fade.

How far you go in life depends on you being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving and tolerant of the weak and the strong. Because someday in life you will have been all of these.

Never give up, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn

Fear grows out of the things we think; it lives in our minds. Compassion grows out of the things we are, and lives in our hearts.

When you begin to touch your heart or let your heart be touched, you begin to discover that it's bottomless, that it doesn't have any resolution, that this heart is huge, vast, and limitless. You begin to discover how much warmth and gentleness is there, as well as how much space.

How do you define a best friend?..

::28-07-05::

A story tells that 2 friends were walking through the desert. During some point of the journey they hold an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. The one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything wrote in the sand: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE. They kept on walking until they found on oasis, where they decided to take a bath. The one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. After he recovered from the near drowing, he wrote on a stone: TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.The friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him,"After I hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone, why?" The other friend replied" When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it.

Cheers!!!

My Desperate Housemates..

::05-07-05::

The episodes for Desperate Housewives finally premiering in Malaysia on 8TV, every Tuesday at 10.30pm. The most talked about, sexy and fun show of the year, is finally here! So there is another new agenda for me to put into my calendar for this coming months ahead. LOL.

Last Sunday, M - my housemate just came back from his hometown and bring a lots of durians to the house. So, last night, was like a party or should i call it kenduri for all of us - eating durians like as much as we can. Among 4 out of 5 of my housemate, MZ was the one who's durian freak everytime the season come. Oh well, did i say season?? pheww.. i don't think we have a season for durians anymore as everyday, anywhere on the street we can found someone selling durians along the roads... it has been a norm scenario these days to found durians anywhere, anytime, anyplace..dont u guys agreed? :D

I haven't tell you about my housemates did i? Well.. Let me introduce them.But what ever i'm gonna tells or writes after this is just from my point of view about them. After living and knowing them for a few years. So, if you mistakenly or purposely read these entry, i'm sorry if there's some miswording i put in here about you guys. This is only my sincere thoughtful mind about you guys from my own perspective.. my own perception... Peace! NO WAR!! :)

1. M - if u guys noticed, i had put some entries on M previously. M - comes from Muar, Johor. Get to know him since my pre-Uni days. But we get closer since we lived together in the same house since we're working. He's fun to be with and the best part is his knowledge on football is beyond my expectation. Sometimes, while watching football matches on TV, he could says some players name that's not even imagining on my mind.. and it makes me wonder, how the hell that he knows all those unfamiliar player names that's on the pitch...But finally i get to know that, he learned or get to know all the players name from the CM games that he played since his Uni days.. ahhh..no wonder lahhh...:P Another things about M, he's PS2 freak..hehe.. Currently he's attached with somebody, and based on our forecast, he will get married soon after all the evidence that we found on his car, his clothes rags and etc.

2. MR - He's my roommates. :D He comes from Kuantan, Pahang. And he's another bestest roommates i ever had after my old roomates OP got married last year. One thing about this guy, he's movie freak and fun person. He could watch a few range of movies from morning till night in a row. So, you could imagine how was it. :) he's also a person with a full of stories. Everytime he got back home, there's must be a story that we gonna hear from him and most of the stories will be a funny story happened while he's away. Like funny video clips gituhh...Class dude!!! hehehe. Above all, he's really OK. Just lately, he's rarely going back home. I dont even know where he sleep, where he change his clothes or etc. As long as he's alive and still remember the path of his "own" house, it should be fine. Bukan apa, just in case if something happen or etc, well, we need to find and locate him asap right?. So, En.rumets, please leave your contact number or location in case of emergency and please quit smoking if you can...just try k! ;)

3. MZ - The most richest housemate in town BUT Hmmm..well i dont think i'm gonna tell more about him. Let you ppl judge him by yourself if and only if u mistakenly get to know him. :D Oh yeah, know what??? we called him "interceptor"..Hahaha..Silly! btw, there's stories lies beneath from where he got that "title"..let it remains our secrets. But the best part of him, we can't even see him easily gets angry with all the jokes that we attached to himself though me and M always teasing him almost everyday. That's what we really respect on him. I think he can be another "Felix" but the Felix-AF3 is more emotionless than he is...:D Ohh nonetheless....he comes from Penang, just for information... :P Ok!! Enuff about MZ.

4. AD - He's mersing guy. Currently work at the same company as i am. Though, we're at the same company, i seldomly talk with him either in the office or home. Dont know why there's big boundaries between us or even a huge spaces between some of my housemate and him. How should i say or describe huh!..Well, frankly, he tend to isolate his life from us. But that's not a big deal for me as long as he's not disturb my life, i'll be fine. Just that sometimes, i'm feeling weird and awkward. Is it i'm the only one which he dont wanna talk with or it's just his attitude?? Just speak up when it is needed ?? or maybe due to something that i know about him, but then he knows nothing about me. Is that the main cause? Btw, it's not my intention to get to know about somebody life. I have my own life to take care of and why should i bother others life??. But the truth is, i get to know about anything that i got to know due to some reasons and believe it or not.. it's unexpectedly happened..i'm not asking for it, it comes to me by itself..... i guess it's not my fault anyway. But dont worry my friend, what ever i knew are safely kept and none will know about it though sometimes i feel its burdened me to the hell....sincerely, its really feels like hell if you're in my shoes....and please dont misunderstood nor push me to the limits with all the attitude or any kind of act that u're currently doing my dear friend..cause up to some extend... i'm really sickkkkk of it and GTH!!..... *sigh*

Tribute to Mak Teh..

:::26-06-05::

# 11.45am #
Saturday morning, while watching TV suddenly i got a phone call from my father..

ayah: Assalamualaikum..hello..abang..
me : Waalaikumsalam..Haa..ayah..ada apa? tiba2 call pagi2 ni..
ayah: abang bawak bertenang ye..bawak banyak2 bersabar..ade berita tak baik sket..
me : ??? kenapa?
ayah : abang.. mak teh baru je meninggal. abang nak balik ke?
me : errr... hmmm.. abang balik..abang balik...adik dah tau?
ayah : awak balik dengan sapa? nanti ayah call dia..tadi ayah call x dapat..
me : haa takpe..nanti abg try call dia..
ayah : ok..abang nak balik bila?
me : abang balik terus lepas ni, lepas mandi, pack barang, amik adik then terus balik jb la kot..
ayah : ok..abang balik terus ke jb eh..
me : hmm..ok.
ayah : bye
me : bye..
Begitulah lebih kurang conversation between me and my dad..

Then, right after the conversation, i got a sms from my cousin - AF .. saying that his mom just passed away at 11.45am..after struggling from a stroke around 6am.. For a while, i'm speechless...

Aku tak tau dari mana dtgnye kekuatan...sedikit pun aku tak menitiskan air mata ketika itu... yg aku sedar, aku harus terima berita yg baru aku dapat ini dgn hati yang tenang dan redha....sedikit sebanyak.. aku rase bersyukur...berakhir sudah segala keperitan, kesakitan dan kepayahan mak teh dlm usaha dia cuba dan terus mencuba mengubati penyakit yang dialaminya sejak sekian lama...

Bagi aku, mak teh seorang wanita yg cekal dan tabah walaupun dilanda berbagai-bagai dugaan dan rintangan dari segi emosi, jiwa dan fizikal...namun dia tetap kuat dan sentiasa redha walaupun ada ketika dia sedikit kecewa dengan apa jua yg diperlakukan keatasnya....

Aku masih ingat..sewaktu dia masih sihat... dia seorang yang cukup pemurah dan baik hati... sebagai anak sedara...dan mana2 sedara-mara beliau sekalipun...sebut sahaja nak makan apa...memang dia akan masakkan segala masakan yg diminta ..jarang sekali dia menghampakan permintaan sesiapa..esp. dr anak2 sedara yg dianggap mcm anak sendri juga...which is me and my sister....pantang kalau kami balik ke jb, rumah mak teh takkan terlepas dr persinggahan....dan setiap kali nak balik..kitaorg akan call bgtau kitaorg nak dtg siap disertakan list menu-menu makanan yg kitaorg nak dia masakkan.....oh my goshh..i'm really miss those memories......oh ye..she's the best "chef" in our family ..selain my uncle tam and my father.. :) tapi segalanya kini...semuanya hanya tinggal dalam kenangan..

# 1pm #
Aku bertolak dari kuala Lumpur dekat pukul 1 tghari, terus fetch adik kat bangi then terusheading to JB. Sampai di JB, dekat pukul 5 ptg. Waktu itu, jenazahnya baru sahaja selesai disembahyangkan. Sayang..aku tak dapat nak menatap wajahnya buat kali terakhir…namun aku sempat mengiringi permergiannya ke sebuah tempat yg hakiki dan pasti dan melihat sendiri dia dikuburkan dan ditalkinkan… Saat talking dibacakan, hatiku terasa sebak..dan air mata bergenang….aku hanya mampu memandang dr suatu sudut sehingga semuanya selesai….

Setelah segalanya selesai, aku hampiri pusaranya…aku duduk bertinggung , memperbetulkan segala isi tanah disekitarnya dan berdoa agar rohnya tenteram dan ditempatkan bersama-sama orang yang beriman dan soleh…insyaAllah… .Hanya doa sahaja yg dapat aku panjatkan buat Mak Teh …

# 9pm #
Sebelah malamnya, diadakan sebuah majlis tahlil untuknya…dan majlis ini akan dijalankan 3 hari berturut-turut selepas solat isya’..
Dan ketika aku menulis catatan ini.. majlis tahlil untuk malam kedua baru sahaja selesai. Esok..aku harus kembali ke kuala Lumpur semula…meneruskan perjuangan yang masih belum selesai…

“Yang mati tetap mati dan tidak akan kembali,…. namun yg masih hidup tetap harus meneruskan hidup hingga kesaat akhir nafas ini berhenti….”

Al – Fatihah buat Hajjah Aminah bte Haji Abdul Rahman…. Al-Fatihah…………

- misterkilroy - 11.45pm - Sunday, 26th Jun 2005

Interviewee & Interviewer..

Holla...

I've been idling for a while..thinking where should i start? Sorry for not updating my blog accordingly as i have a lots of activities plus tones of works need to be settle by last week. Finally, it is almost done, the handover process that i've been carried out for the past few weeks reach the end. Just there's one more thing left and i'm looking forward to complete it by this week or next week...:)

Hmmpphh.. Last week also was the most tiring week i ever had in my life. Though some of the activities really makes me tired but i enjoyed every single thing i've done last week. It's really fun and i think i should try to join other competition in future.. but b4 that i need to take a swim lesson first ..hehehe...

Ok..nak citer pesal apa ehh? Let me segregate the stories first. Where shud i start uhh?
1. Interview
2. Score Explorace
3. Invitation to an interview
4. Blind date ( Hmm...)
5. Vampire a.k.a Pontianak a.k.a Banshee???

Interview
I've been invited to an interview last week. Now, i just hope that i shall success on that interview. So, i can get out from here..Hehe..

To those who're in TM, they might know about the GEMS project all about. I've been interviewed by the PD and PM of the project. Gile tak ingat punye takut mase tuh, tapi bila masuk jek dlm bilik tuh...it takes not more than 10- 12 minutes pun...hahaha
Lepas interview, straight balik rumah sbb malas nak masuk office semula......nak tempuh traffic jam plus tinggal 1 jam setengah jek lagi..mmg tak berbaloi kot kalau balik office kot...so malas nak rajin2 sgt skang ni.. hehe... :P

Score explorace
This was organized by my company's sport club. Their intention was :
- To foster closer relationship among employees
- To create a healthy workforce by providing the right activities for employees to keep themselves physically and mentally challenged.
- To promote recreation and to boost employees' morale.
- Platform to promote and encourage employees' participation in recreation activities as well as developing a healthy and balance worklife in a harmonious environment
- and the list goes on and on.. bla..bla..bla.. :P

But for me, the objectives are just a crap!! For me it's all about having fun actually after stuck with tones of workload at the office and this is the chance for me to release any unsatisfaction feeling or headache with my works thru sports activity...this is the way i relief my pressure of my hectic works life!!... i feel refresh and recharge afterthat tho sakit2 la jugak badan ni lepas balik aritu...but it's really great and wonderful experience!!....hahaha.

Oh ye..lupa nak criter..we have this score explorace at Bukit Cerakah, Shah Alam. Satu bukit cerakah we have to round in order to complete all the task given. To those have been to bukit cerakah, they should know how "spacey" the area is..hehehe and cud u imagine that we only be given two and half hours to complete all the task. Siap ade swimming2 dlm kolam, commando crawling, and etc..etc..

Though we need to run from one check point to another checkpoint but most of the time i just walk ..hahaha.....Mana larat beb nak constant running. Dah ler takde training, takde apa..terus jek masuk competition..hahaha..Kan kerja giler namanye tuh...Some participants sampai cramp kaki pun ade... kesian because once u're unable to move or continue the journey,u need to get the marshal help and you're disqualified from the competition. Rules still rules..So sorry dude!

BTW, to those yg penah masuk orienteering, this competition some sort of like orienteering gak, cuma it's not using any compass. But i do prefer orienteering much more than this because orienteering much more challenging dari yg nih sbb korang kna carik ur own direction sendri. Baru la thrill sket...

I guess u guys always watched the explorace kat TV3 rite? Nampak mcm seronok gitu, tapi when u're given a task and challenge to complete. Then u know betapa azabbbbb nye nak abiskan satu2 task. And im really respect and salute to those people yg masuk explorace tuh. It's not easy my dear.. seriously...its tough and it is not that easy... :) dare to try?? explorace season 3 nak start..apa lagi..gi la register..*wink*

Invitation to an interview(next week)
I'm quite surprise when i got back from explorace last saturday. While checking my mailbox, there' s one mail written " Panggilan Untuk Temuduga" and it's for ME!!!..woohoo!!!....and It's from SPA by the way.. BUT i never expect any kind of letter dlm waktu sekarang ni..plus i just get to know a few weeks back, i'm not in the list of the succesful candidates who're success in the PTD assessment last month( i guess...hmmmphh....) But, what the heck!!

I remembered, i didnt apply for any post at SPA again. Ni surat apa yg mai plak kali nih..what position ler plaknye...mcm2 benda bermain dlm kepala otak aku aritu... Nak kater position peg.sistem maklumat...aku baru plan nak apply next year..hahah... takkan mcm paham2 jek kot spa ni...hahaha...budus!! banyak berimaginasi betul... :P

Well, when im opened the envelope, it says that.. "Tahniah, anda dipelawa untuk menghadirkan diri untuk temuduga ..bla...bla...bla.." ... Hahaha...Mcm tak pecaya jek!! It's a PTD interview guys...woohoo!!! So here it goes, another stories in my life...:D

Blind date ?? ( Hmmm..)
Believe it or not.. i'm going for a blind date ...woo hoo!!!....hahaha..silly!!!!! a friend of mine yg beriya-iya sgt nak i meet this girl.. phew!! frankly, it's been a long time since i went out for a so called "date" . So, agak2 dah lost of touch lah jugak ..caner ehh? how to brush up my skills nihhh...any tips?? or any opinions??? hehehe..

Btw, i dun mind to make a new friend and it's nothing wrong making a new friend..
for me, if there's chemistry between both of us....let its lead the way it should be...takyah nak pening2 kepala ye tak? ;) Hehehe..

well, i think i'm not gonna to tell anything much about it.. because it's too soon to tell... wait till my next extry if i still remember to story or willing to story about it later...hahaha..

Vampire aka Pontianak
Baru2 ni kitaorg dikejutkan dgn kisah "ehem-ehem"...it's just happened a few days back sekitar kawasan perumahan aku. If i'm not mistaken, it happened on last Sunday night.. Macam2 cerita aku dah dengar and most of them quite similar.. btw, i believe makhluk2 ni memang wujud, dia pun makhluk ciptaan Tuhan gak.....cuma i've never been in that experience before and i'll always pray and hope agar aku dijauhkan dari perkara-perkara sebegitu...kalau boleh mmg taknak alami langsung..selisihhhhh laaa!!! Takmooo.....Takmoooo...

Sekarang kalau balik rumah jek terasa berdiri gak bulu roma ni, tak tau kenapa...sblom nih aku slamber jek dok rumah sorang2..tapi skang..kalau dok sorang2 rase semacam jek... Mcm semalam, aku antara org terawal sampai rumah...masuk2 rumah mmg gelap gelita...so aku tawakal jek masuk and guess what.... at the end, habis satu rumah aku bukak lampu terang benderang plus aku bukak TV kuat-kuat...hehehe

Niat dihati bukan nak menakutkan sesiapa atau impress sesiapa mahupun burukkan sesiapa...tapi kejadian tuh ade gak hikmahnya sedikit sebanyak...Kenapa aku ckp camtu??? Mesti korang pelik kan?? Hmm.. Bagi aku, disebabkan kejadian itu gak, i cud see some ppl change.....and hopefully it change forever la... kalau dulu ade yg malas2 nak solat..but now, ade yg start solat and baca yassin..is that good ehh?? dan aku bersyukur sedikit sebanyak ia akan memberikan sedikit "cahaya" kepada rumah yg aku diami skang ni....

Walau apa pun yg telah atau bakal berlaku, semua yg berlaku itu atas ketentuan Allah swt...Sebagai hamba Nya, kita hanya mampu berdoa supaya dihindari dr gangguan iblis dan syaitan ini.... Wallahualam... :)

p/s: Sorry i have to mix up with malay words this round, if u're not understand my wording, try to refer to the dictionary malay-english for dummy on the right link under Kilroy Fav Spot section.Hope it'll help a lil' bit... :)

Cheers!!

Mari Mengulangkaji..

::21-06-05::

Got this stuff from a friend's blog.. kinda kewl!! :) Saje jek utk suka2 mengisi masa terluang korang.....hahaha... :P

Berikut disenaraikan kajian mengenai hubungan kasih sayang individu mengikut bulan kelahiran.

September

• Bersopan dalam hubungan
comment: betuiiii...betuiiiii ....saya adalah seorg budak yg sopan......hahahaha... ops! excuse me... :x

• Bertolak ansur terhadap pasangan
comment: hmm..pada yang tauuuuuuuuuu takpe...tapi pada yg takkk tauuuuuu tuh ..tolong la appreciate....itu saja...

• Suka mengkritik pasangan
comment: suka tuh takde la..tapi berleter sket2 tuh ade la ......tapi utk kebaikan tak salah kan??

• Sangat prihatin terhadap pasangan
comment: maybe.. aku nih prihatin ke? prihatin = concern ? kalau prihatin betul lah tuh kot...tapi sangat prihatin tuh tak...sometimes bile malas2 buat donno jek....hehe

• Sangat sensitif dan emosi
comment: bole tahan...tapi takde la sgt sensitif....lagipun virgo mmg sensitif sket kot...:P kalau takde emosi tuh robot namanya...bukan manusia...hahaha

• Pandai memahami pasangan
comment: ye ke? kadang2 paham......kadang2 blur gak.....nobody is perfect rite?...:D biase laa hidup ni ade pasang surut...kadang2 paham..kadang2 x paham...kadang2 buat2 x paham...hehehe

• Kurang menunjukkan perasaannya terhadap pasangan
comment: haaa..yg ni aku sokong 110% ..hehe..adakalanya...somethings better left unsaid...baru thrill sket...ye tak?? haha.. x berkata sayang..tak semestinya kita tak menyayangi org tuh...just remember, action sometimes speaks louder than words...betul tak?? hehe

• Amat memilih pasangan
comment: semua org nak yg terbaik utk diri msg2...tapi aku takde lah sampai "AMAT" memilih ok?? :P as long as the chemistry is there...nothing is impossible.... hahaha..x menjawab soklan sungguh!!! :D

• Sukar melupakan sekiranya hati terluka.
comment: Hmm..ade betulnya kot.. luka sudah pastinya meninggalkan parut.. dan parut tuh akan kekal sampai ke hujung nyawa... tapi aku bukanlah seorang pendendam mcm sesetengah org...

• Mudah simpati dengan perasaan dan masalah pasangan.
comment: silap ayat dia ni...ayat yg betul ialah "concern" ...hehehe.. ye lah...kalau dah sayang musti lah concern...:P

• Pasangan Ideal: Lahir dalam bulan 3, 6, 8 atau 11
comment: No comment!! :P

Untuk lebih lanjut, lawatilah laman yang tertera dibawah :D

Courtesy of : http://ellecunz.blogspot.com and http://shakderaman.blogdrive.com

Friendship..

::17-06-05::

"Friends are born, not made." - Author: Henry Adams

To all my dear friends out there..

I have a picture that sits on my desktop at work. When the day gets long, or my boss/clients get impatient, I remember to take a moment and look at the photo. It is a picture of my best friends taken years ago. It reminds me of the good times we have shared and the support that their friendship still gives me today.

Even though our lives have gone in different directions, the bond we created has kept us close. Rare is the week that I don’t get a sms on my cell phone from one of them “just checking in” or a letter in the mailbox with the latest and updates news. Frequently I get e-mail messages with a joke for the day or words of comfort for something going on in my life. My friends have shown up for surprise visit to my office, sent sms just to say hello for no reason, and one of them even bought me a present on my birthday even though i'm not expecting anything from them on my birthday,only just a little thought on my birthday should be fine and i'm really blessed for that.

Our friendship has carried me through a lot of difficult experiences, and has enriched the good ones. It is the kind of friendship that outlasts disagreements, changes, and separation. Which reminds me, I have a few e-mails to answer.

BTW, just a few quotes of friendship i wanna share today where i found it through the internet last few weeks i guess..... It's really kewl and mesmerize.... So sit back guys and enjoy!! ;)

Cheers!

"Friendship with oneself is all important, because without it one cannot be friends with anyone else in the world." - Author: (Anna) Eleanor Roosevelt (1884-1962), American diplomat, writer, US First Lady

"Friendship is love with understanding." -Author: Ancient Proverb

"With clothes the new are best, with friends the old are best" - Author: Anonymous

"True friendship is like sound health, the value of it is seldom known until it be lost." - Author: Charles Caleb Colton (1780-1832), Writer, author

"Some of the most rewarding and beautiful moments of a friendship happen in the unforeseen open spaces between planned activities. It is important that you allow these spaces to exist." - Author: Christine Leefeldt

"A true friend is one who overlooks your failures and tolerates your successes."- Author: Doug Larson

" When a friend is in trouble, don't annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do. Think up something appropriate and do it." - Author: E. W. Howe

"A friend is one who knows us, but loves us anyway." - Author: Fr. Jerome Cummings

"Once in a while you meet someone, and soon you both discover the two of you are truly something special to each other... you share your thoughts and feelings so relaxed, so openly, and right away you know your friendship's truly meant to be." - Author: Gary Harrington

" Friendship is the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person, having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words." - Author: George Eliot (1819-80), [Mary Ann Evans] British writer

"The language of friendship is not words but meanings."-Author: Henry David Thoreau (1817-62), American writer, author, naturalist, "Civil Disobedience" "Walden"

"Friendships begin because, even without words, we understand how someone feels." - Author: Joan Walsh Anglund (b. 1926), American children's author, illustrator

" One of the most beautiful qualities of true friendship is to understand and to be understood." - Author: Lucius Annaeus Seneca (4BC?-AD 65), [The Younger] Roman Stoic philosopher, writer, tutor

"One of the surest evidences of friendship that one individual can display to another is telling him gently of a fault. If any other can excel it, it is listening to such a disclosure with gratitude, and amending the error."-Author: Edward Bulwer-Lytton

"The friendship between a man and a woman which does not lead to marriage or desire for marriage may be a life long experience of the greatest value to themselves and to all their circle of acquaintance and of activity; but for this type of friendship both a rare man and a rare woman are needed. Perhaps it should be added that either the man or the woman thus deeply bound in lifelong friendship who seeks marriage must find a still rarer man or woman to wed, to make such a three cornered comradeship a permanent success." - Author: Anna Garlin Spencer

"The most basic and powerful way to connect to another person is to listen. Just listen. Perhaps the most important thing we ever give each other is our attention…. A loving silence often has far more power to heal and to connect than the most well-intentioned words. " - Author: Rachel Naomi Remen

Lets puzzling..

Sorry guys for not updating this blog..

Tied up with some office works lately.. dunt worry, i shall update it later...

Mean while.. if u're bored..try play this puzzle ok! hehe.. at least there's somethin u can play around..:D

got from a friend's blog - Thanx Yna... ;)

Somethings are better left unsaid..

::07-06-05::

To split or not to split; that is the question when a relationship hits the rocks. How do we decide when to talk and when to walk? And if we walk, how do we deal with the inevitable heartache down that road to singledom? These all the question keeps on playing in our mind when it comes to the end of a relationship..

One of the hardest things about breaking up is missing the other person’s company, the insightful opinions and so forth. Well it’s still possible to be friends with your ex unless of course if he or she was totally sucks!!

But what i'm gonna say after this is not about relationship or something related to love nor feelings or etc etc........because i'm not dr.Love... Hehehe..:P

I just wanna share a thought with u guys based on my experienced.....whenever you broke up.....keep details of the breakup private.. and i think it should be that way and works that way... i'm not saying that u can't story to others or someone else so that u can feel relief....no one can't stopping you to say anything you want to others BUT... It is better keep it by yourself...

Yeah..why am i telling ya to keep it private?? Most of the times we need to talk about it after we broke up rite?? My advise is even if we do, find friends that you can really trust or you may keep the details to the minimum if you really wanna talk about it.

It is also alright if you don’t want to talk about it...and i think that is the right choice you've made... What happened in the relationship is between the two of you and you don’t have to disclose it to other people... If word spreads sometimes, it will make things more complicated or humiliate someone or yourself if it was being misintepreted by others... so it is better if we keep it by ourself aite!

I think thats all for today.. Till then..

Cheers!

Can girls and boys be "friends"? Just friends??..

::03-06-05::

Hollaaaa....:D

Actually, I got some problem with one of my server this morning... Don't know what's going wrong.. So while waiting for the problem to be resolve..i've been thinking..why not i'm posting something on my blog today... brilliant!!!!! hahah... Tu laaa...don't ask me to update/write on this blog again next time......i'm totally addicted to it now...so padan la muka korang kena baca lagi my latest entry.......phew!!! :D

Can girls and boys be "friends"? Just friends? That's the question u need to ask yourself now ...hehe...Girls or women or wanita or perempuan.. …they all mean the same to a certain extend. Then, there are some who are suitable to be, just friends with... I call them the buddy type. They shop, gossip and watch movies with you...To some extend, we talk about our girl with them and they would totally listen and comment accordingly. I'm sure you have some girl friends like that rite?

It's cool to have girl or women as your best buddies simply because they have a whole different perceptive of everything. Not to say that male friends are not cool - don't get me wrong. It's just that sometimes women rationalize and look at things from a different angle. It's good to look at things from both side of the coin, isn't it? Plus, it's logical to get advice about women from a girl. It's rather refreshing sometimes...hehe ..if u never try it, i'm suggesting you to try it once....hehe..but dont got me wrong...i'm not promoting yeh!! kang nanti..kembang2 plak kawan "pompuan" kita kat luar tuh... ;)

If they are so cool and understanding, then how come she's just a friend?.. Pretty complicated or confuse huh?? Well....some women, we are just not attracted to "that way". No chemistry and no butterfly in your stomach feeling kind of woman. No sexual attraction and no physical tension. Funny, but I can't explain it myself...hehe

Now, here comes the type of woman who gives you all the above kind of feeling. It's the girlfriend material. How would you know? Well I always believe in a man's instincts. It's very powerful, so use it! These are the women whom you would do anything for. She makes you feel special because there is some unexplainable connection between you and her. There's love...lalalala....:D.

The major difference between a girl buddy and a girlfriend is that, girlfriends can make you feel jealous for no substantial reason. Caught her looking at another man and you would throw tantrum, but if your girl buddy does that, you would be totally supportive about it... that's one of simple example... but i'm not a kind of simply get jealous if my girlfriend looking to some other guys...just looking to other people are not so obvious i guess, unless la kalau dia clearly dok main2 mata depan kita with some other guys ker or doing something behind us ke and we have proof on it...then only we can feel un comfortable or get jealous........unfortunately, i dont have one for now...so, wut the heck!!! ...hahaha...

There is also another type, some ppl call it "The Facade" - you both are just friends but deep inside, you are actually "mad" about her but have no guts what so ever to confess. This is the toughest category. Confess and risk losing a friend? Conceal and have your heart broken every time she talks about another guys she fancies? Both ways you lose. I've experienced this kinda of things before and it's pretty messed up .. some of them i'm still keep in touch.. but some was totally silence... btw, i have no regrets...at least i feel relieved ....

If you are the bold type, I would say confess. At least you will feel relieved knowing that she knows, on top of that, the ball is now in her court. If she doesn't feel the same about you, at least you know it for sure. I strongly suggest you move on with your life after the awkward confession session. Look up, be strong and move on, guys... On the contrary, I would personally avoid this option - I'll totally chicken out... Just keep on trying dude!.. if there's chemistry between u and her... nothing is impossible.... :)

So, which type of women do you have in your life? The buddy? The girlfriend? or the facade? It's difficult to categorize them in this manner because some of them can be a mixture of almost everything, creating an unidentified hybrid. But one thing's for sure - our relationship and interaction with women is inevitable. Who and what type of friendship you wish to establish with them, is completely entirely up to you - as long as you know where to draw the line..

Cheers!!

Making The First Move..

::01-06-05::

Hello ppl! i'm back again....and as per what i've been promised yesterday.. i'm gonna to ask your opinion or view on certain things rite??This is the thing that i've been mentioned to all of you yesterday... about "Making the first move.." ..woohoo!!!

In malay, we called it " Perigi Cari Timba"... :D ...but please dont get me wrong...i just wanna to know your opinion and perspective on the above said topic... no offense eh... :) tak kira lelaki mahupun wanita...i just wanna to know your view...your thinking...your perception...your perspective....if girls make the first move in todays living? so come on guys...brainstorming starts!!!!! hehehe...

Basically, its been crossing my mind while i'm updating my blog yesterday...hehe

However, before i move further, i would like to remind everybody and please bear in mind that i'm not encouraging nor provoking any kind of acts that you're gonna to do after reading my latest entry today..... whatever u're gonna to do is solely based on your judgement not by influenced by me or the writer of this blog k!..hehe.. :D

Hmmm...alrite... NOW, can u imagine that ...humm....you’ve met the boy of your dreams – he’s smart, funny, hot and not too bad looking... what should you do? Can you make the first move? Asking him out for a movie? Make the restaurant reservation? Maybe buy him roses? or etc..etc...are there limits when it comes to women’s liberation? .. So you would start to think should u make the first move or should u wait, rite??? hehe..

From my point of view, it has nothing wrong if the women making the first move. Today, a woman can open a door for a guy, pull out a chair for herself, and even pay for dinner. But living in the malay culture and malaysian-based society yg penuh nilai-nilai murni dan budaya...cececehh....*wink.... it's always not so nice if women make the first move to a guy.....some says girls can't make the first move because it's a huge turnoff — isn't it?

But the truth is, many guys — including me — aren't turned off by girls making the first move at all...depending on the art of seduction i guess...hehehe... In fact, we actually think it's a turn-on sometimes when girls making the first move...!

It's a lot of pressure, feeling like you always have to make the first move — even in a situation where it's obvious that both people dig each other. So if a girl is brave enough to act first, sometimes the guy will be grateful to her for easing that pressure...

But for some reason, I've noticed that a lot of girls are still old-fashioned when it comes to making the first move. Traditionally, if a girl and a guy are interested in each other, it's the guy who's supposed to ask the girl out on a date … right? and it's normal by the way..

Nonetheless, the lesson here applies to everyone... either its a girl or guy who's making the first move, it's really doesn't matter or bothering me.... for me, if you like somebody and know that she or he likes you, you have to realize that someone's got to take action for something to happen. So don't get caught up with ideas of who's supposed to do what — if that someone isn't you, things might never move forward sampai la bila2! so, take a deep breathe and think about it... :)

As i've been mentioned in my earlier post.. "The future depends on what we do in the present..."
so...Sign Off dude!!

Tomorrow Never Dies..

::31-05-05::

Yo…Wuts up ppl!! Misterkilroy is back.. Hahaha....tuhhhh dia ayat paling poyo i ever said in this blogs!!!

Sorry guys for not updating the blog for these few days …got stucked with a lot of things in my life lately…..btw, its just a few days and belum sampai few months aite??…hehe..so ...ok, let me count it 1st since when i'm stop blogging to this blog….emmmm… ahhhhhhh… it’s been 12 days since my last entry.. So xde la lama mana pun...hehehe....rase mcm baru jek update semalam..:P

Oh well, apa nak update ni ek?? Hishh…takde feel sungguh nak update…sbb takde interesting stories to share with… I just live in a normal way as you are…. Bangun pagi, solat , going for work, went back from work, watching tv, play ps2, makan ..bla bla..bla…and so on, and it’s a typical normal daily activity like everyone else I guess…so malas la nak berciter benda2 mcm tuh..

Well just for an updates.. the reason why I’m not updating my blog for the past few days are:

1. I went back to my home town last weekend. My parents buat kenduri sket kat rumah sbb we never do a kenduri since we move back to that house. And because of I’m the only son in the family, so u may imagine la how busy I am helping my mom n dad last week. Really….really…..really… exhausted dude last week..but it’s pay-off and I’m really happy because my grandma, pakcik, makcik from all over the place comes to our house that day.. mmg kecoh giler satu rumah ..dgn my cousin yg kecik2 ..dok berlari2 ..menyanyi ..etc…plus one of my bestest aunty + uncle from spore pun dpt turun gak aritu….and that day i siap buli dorg suruh potong tembikai sampai habis sambil layan dorang berborak …gile jahat anak sedara sorg ni…hehehe

2. because I went for a training for the whole week last week. So, tak masuk office langsung and during training, malas nak surf net and update blog.

3. I just got back to the office today coz yesterday I take a leave, sending my sis for an interview for lecturer post at uitm shah alam. Gile penat nak tunggu org nak kena interview dari diri sendri pegi for an interview…seriously I’m not kidding…hehe. Memandangkan just got back to the office today..so there’s a pile of works I need to do. Mcm a friend of mine, “Nad” says ..kerja mesti didahulukan….kan kan kan?? Heheh..

4. but the main reason why I’m not updating the blog is because of I’m really lazy nak karang2 ayat lately…hehe…..and please accept my sincere reason why I’m not updating the blog for the past few days…hehehe….orait lah tuh ye tak? At least I says the truth… *wink..

Yesterday, I’m trying to watch star wars episode 3 with my sis at mid valley, but it says you need to book 2 days in advance in order to watch the movie…sigh! Wut the heck..dah seminggu lebih pun still nak kena booking ke? Leceh gilerrrrr….btw, ANYONE have watched Senario XXX? any comments? I'm in the midst of waiting this kinda of movie - Mr and Mrs Smith - starring by Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie... ade sape2 nak gi nonton sama?? :D

Hmm…as all of us know that now is school holidays…and on each school holiday means…akan ade sessi "makan free" every weekend esp for a bachelor like me..heheh….why I say so? Sbbnye ..there’s a lot of my fren or your fren is getting married during this period of time.. .so, every weekend pasti ade invitation to wedding ceremony rite?…As for myself, I’ve been attending my frens wedding since before the school break starts... And this week sahaja, I’ve got 3 invitation and it makes my schedule for this weekend fully occupied…hehe… and not to forget….FULL of NASI MINYAK too…huhuhu…

Actually, I would like to write some other things at first, but I’ve been digress from the main point …..biase lah tuh….yg difikir lain, yg dicakap lain, yg ditulis lain….hampehhh!! hehe…maybe i'll put on my next entry perhaps… because it's really a good topic though....I just wanna some readers opinion jek from what i'm going to write and ask then...…that’s all…so keep active and regenerate!!!..hehehe

Ok guys, I think that’s all for now…. Till then. ..Chowwie alligator!

One thousanD miLLion SmiLe...

::04-05-05::

It’s been a while since my last post. Sorry guys, I’ve been busy with a lot of stuff lately. Do not have some ample time to write and update this blog fer a while.. Btw, now I’m back!! Weeeeeeehhhuuuuuuu……though m still busy with some other stuff, yet m still trying to find some time just to write on this blog because I’ve been missing it a lot!!!…hehe..

Ok..let see…where should I start uh? Humm… oh yehh!! Last week was the worst week I ever had. Wanna to know why? Let me tell you the stories , so stay back and listen…:P

Remember I’ve told you in my earlier post that I had this kind of migration thingy at my office. So, after the migration we’ve been facing some performance issues which being dragged about a few days to troubleshoot it. Goshh…it’s really-really gives me a big headache!! On Thursday – 28th April 2005, then only the problem solved. After a few tuning up , etc , etc…then only the process goes well and at unbelievable rate!!! Previously , if my process taken up a lot of resources and consume a lot of time eg: almost 10-12 hours to complete. Now, it can be completed in just 45 mins – 1 hours. That’s a huge difference isn’t it?? Hehehe.. and that’s what I called – “Unbelievable”. It is just runs on V-Class machine, what if its run in Superdome??? Whoaaaaaaaaa…..Less than 10 minutes I guess….hahahaha..

In lives, problems wouldn’t be stop forever. It’s a continuous process. One after another and that’s what happens to me. After I’ve got some good news about the migration thingy, there it goes some other problems. *sigh … and this times it’s really makes things worsen than before. .. Do u guys wanna to know what? We’ve been “missing” the most critical data on the Thursday evening itself , just after I’ve got the good news on the above issues…..and this time… its really makes me de-motivated !!! Seriously, all the effort you’ve done so far for about 2-3 months just blew up not more than a seconds…. can u imagining that??? It’s all because of somebody has mistakenly issue the command “ rm * “ on the machine and bammmmm!!! All the data was gone dude!!! Sometimes, I feel like I want to scream out loud, sometimes feel like to cry like hell, but there’s no point for me to do all the weird things because what ever is gone is gone…and the best part is we’ve not any backup on that!!! The answers we get was the machine did not install yet with this some bull-shit so called data protector to do the backup thingy…but hey!!! The machine being running a long time ago if I’m not mistaken and now it’s still not being installed with the backup mechanism?? Oh gosshhh… I don’t want to elaborate more on this…it makes me feel really sick!!

Ohhh ya..forget to tell you guys. I’ve been going to this PAC last weekend – stand for PTD Assessment Center. I think I did mention it in my earlier post. Nway, It’s really tough courses. The competition was so damn high. No wonder it’s hard post to get in the government sector. Based on my last performance and evaluation on the PAC, my rate was so average compare to other participants. So, I’m not going to aim so high on it. If I passed that assessment, I would thanks to God, if not it’s not my “rezeki” anyway. So, no offence..

Btw, just got my performance bonus last few days….Wooohooooooooooooo………Yippieeeeeeee!!! Uppppsss…I shouldn’t reveal it btw, but just wanna to share the excitement only ….Sorry yeh!! HEHE…no offence ok!! Because, I’ve been waiting for so long for this bonus. So many speculations on it…Some says no bonus at all this years, some say there’s only a small amount of it, some says a huge amount….and so many rumors being heard… But finally, it’s there……Thanks God…..I’m really thankful…. I plan to clear up all my credit card for once and for all…..and I’ve been thinking to close all the Credit card I had and use “cash” only plus top-up my saving just in case I’ve made my mind to settledown ke….hahaha….naaaaahh…..just kidding…hihihi…...however, the question is, am I capable of it?? Hmmm…

HappY BirthdaY DaD..

::26-04-05::

It's been a long time since my last entry. I'm fully occupied. As at 5.56pm, fyi i haven't take my lunch yet because i'm too tight with my job.Leaving the office for about 4 days since last thursday really makes my life more miserable. That gives a reason why i rarely take a long break/holiday..*sigh*

Today is my dad 56th birthday. Happy Birthday DaD. May God bless you always.. Love ya so much daddy!!.. Received a sms from him today makes me feel blessed and almost cry that i had a father like him. I'm so thankful to have a such wonderful dad like him.He had teached me a lots of thing about life. He always be my mentor.

I do remember during my childhood day, i am always afraid to speak with him. Everytime he comes across my sight, i'll always trying to get rid from him...i really don't know why.. compare to my sister, i prefer to talk or chat with my mom rather to my dad.. but now, all things have change..when we become older and older, we'll find that each moment that we spent together is so beautiful in its own way...we'll try to cherish and treasure each moment that we had together.... that really makes a big difference - between old days and now .. things changed a lot.. and guess what, now i can tease him and sometimes make a fun with him... and he'll simply laugh or smile everytime we both (my sister and me) tease him with anything that we can...jahat giler anak2 dia dua org nih..:D

Kenapa kitaorg jadi mcm tu?? The reason is simple - ask yourself what life means to you? We never know what will happen to one of us tomorrow and the days coming. Like a friend-"aapitz" said in her blogs - Don't wait until the very last time to say what you what to say to your loved ones...

So, catch u later guys!

Cheers.. ;)

When mom's whispeR..

::19-04-05::

Last Sunday after fetching my sister from the Kajang train station, we went for a dinner together some where nearby the Bandar Baru Bangi area. While waiting for our food to be serve, as usual we’ve been talking and sharing some updates between both of us. One thing that’s really surprising me that night was when I’m asking how is our mom and dad was, and my sis said that they’re both “SICK”… Goshh!!!!

I’ve been idling for a moment. Speechless. The word “SICK” has shocked me for a while. I’m asking her why they’re not even say anything pun when I’m calling them? Sedangkan, I’ve been calling them about 3/4 times a weeks, and still they never say anything about it even though sometimes I felt there’s something wrong with their voices esp my dad. And guess what my sister said, they do not want their children being disturb or upset. Omigoshh…what was they’re thinking about? As the first child in the family, I should know if something goes wrong or etc… I have the right to know either they’re fine or not… :(

Based on the story that my sister told me, it’s not a normal sickness. It caused by someone. I don’t want to elaborate more on this because i don’t know the real situation. But lately, my dad found this animal called “ pelesit” inside our house. My dad had found it twice since we’re moving to that house. I think whose who’re malay people knows what is “pelesit” is all about…

Now, I can’t even focused on my jobs, my body are still here, but my mind and soul is somewhere else. Can’t stop thinking about them. I have request a day leave on Friday and plan to get back to my hometown this Wednesday night. Hopefully my boss will approve it. Really pray my application will be approve. The time now was very critical to me and to our unit because we have another “MAJOR” data migration and server relocation activities this Thursday. This is not the right time for me to apply for leave because the work loads was so heavy at the moment…..*sigh*...banyak betul dugaan yg menimpa saat-saat camni… byk2 bersabar je lah kilroy!! …That’s the only way I could remind myself not to regret on everything or anything that was happened or will be happened.

Nway, I’ll try to convince my boss, they can reach my mobile if they need anything while I’m away. That’s a promise. Because after the migration, they shall need me to verify all the applications etc… Verify through phone boleh ke boss? Hehehe..if not, get me one id lah, so that I can dial-up from home…tuh laa….sape suruh suspend my id, kan dah susah…hmm….kalau susah2 sgt..i’ll try to find the nearest service center once I get back to my home town if they need me to verify certain things… idea yg bernas gak tuh.. janji boleh balik kampung…hehe..

If my AL being approved, I think I’m gonna to take a night train because I’m still in the recovering process. Tak larat nak drive kereta.. Kalau lah boleh naik flight, kan best..cepat sket… : ( tak sabar rasanya nak jumpa both my parents… if and only if I have an ability to fly….Hmm....dah start mengarut lah tuh kilroy!! :P

Ok guys, I guess I’ll see u guys later…till then..

Sign off!

D' Lost TreasuRe..

::18-04-05::

I woke up early today - around 6am I guess. It’s all because I heard the sound of water falling at the bathroom floor early this morning. It’s quite weird for a while because usually, nobody is wake up at that point of time – 6am ok!! And what have been surprising me is it’s my room mate was in the bathroom.. damn!! what the hell is he’s doing there because knowing him, it was sooooo hard for him to wake up early in the morning everyday. If there’s a bomb drop pun, he’ll never wake up… that’s a lil bit about my roommate. Btw, I shall write about him later k! Hehe..

I decided to wakeup, once he’s out from the bathroom. Actually I woke up around 4am today. I went out from my house @ 6.50am and reach office around 7.30am. As usual on every Monday morning, a lot of things need to be check and sincerely, there’s no such thing as pleasure moment on Monday. I hate Monday!!!

Today, I need to prepare something to pass to the new trainee that currently attached @ my unit. Nanti boss bising plak, if I haven’t give her anything to do while she’s on the attachment period.. Hmm.. Pening gak nak soh budak trainee ni wat keja, xtau nak bagi kerja apa actually…lainlah kalau new staff ke, at least we know the knowledge transfer or etc will be use for a longer time and he/she will be there for a long period of time.. whatever it is, something needs to be pass to her at the end of the day.

Last Saturday, I went for treasure hunting from KL – Genting Highlands. It’s really an exciting journey – because I never went to Genting before, but it’s also makes me really exhausted at the end of the day. It takes one whole day to complete this treasure hunt. At the morning, we have this motor- hunt, and then around 4pm, we had a walk bunt at the indoor theme parks. On the night itself, we have to attend this Gala Night, just to get the answer of the last treasure hunt question. So, you can imagine how pack our time for this event. Nway, x menang pun treasure hunt tuh, and I just join it for just for fun plus this is the only way I can find myself a time for a short-break from my hectic-working world….

Yesterday, I picked up my sister @ Stesen Keretapi Kajang. She comes back from Kluang and she told me some bad news about my parents. Still can’t stop thinking about them till now. If and only if they can read this, I would say I’m really miss them so much.. : (

Aisey…Time’s up…Gonna to continue later.. Pax Out!

a Confession..

::15-04-05::

It’s Friday and its 7.25pm already but I’m still in the office.

A long conversation with my superior that makes me stays back in the office till now. How many of u are really can have a conversation with their superior after office our? I mean u can talk or say about anything u want? Feel free and comfortable to share some thought or some stories with their boss?

I would consider myself is lucky to have a superior which is so nice and understanding. Even though we’re always tight up with a tight schedule or works everyday, but after office hour our usually we would spend about half an hours or more by just talking or sharing our thoughts or our past lives or about certain issues.. is that great? Or is it weird?

Previously, most of our stories or topics would consist of our childhood lives, school period, university days and sometimes on current lives. But today topic was quite hot and interesting though some of u may think that it is just a normal thing…Hummm... are u ready to hear what am I gonna to say after this? Hehe.. sure dah tak sabar2 aite? :D

Actually I’ve wrote about this things before but I never say anything about myself… It’s all about “smoking” !!!.. …Yes… you’re damn right if u might say it is just a common thing, but to some people it is not a common or normal thingy. I don’t know how its started but Yes..…I do smoking … don’t ask me why ….. it’s quite complicated..

That’s what my superior asked me today – face to face just to make sure either is it true I smoke?.. and the answer is : “Yes, boss, I do smoke..”.. she noticed a pack of cigarettes inside my pocket earlier ( a few months back she said) but haven’t had a chance to ask me.. because she said I didn’t look like a smoker at all.. and she can't believe that i smoke!!..

I agree when she said I don’t look like a smoker at all because not so many people that I knew knows I’m smoking.. want to know why?

The reason is simple:
1. I’m not a heavy smoker.
2. I can stop smoking whenever I like..whenever i want...
3. I only starts smoke when I’m really got serious issues in my life.
4. I don’t smoke in front of certain peoples in my life. Eg: my parents, relatives, some friends, childrens, babies, and women that I care most… why?? It is not because I’m afraid of or trying to hide it anyway….but it’s all due to the word “RESPECT”… I think u get what I mean…
5. Nway, I’m in the midst to stop smoking forever... Hopefully..

I'm always pray to God so that i can have a strength to fight and stop this bad habits and it’s been about 3 months without a single cigarette as at today - 15 April 2005.

But there’s always a bad impression for the smokers rite?? either he/she is a heavy or a social smoker. Once u’re a smoker, people always think u’re a bad people. But Hey!!!! please don’t judge the book by its cover. For me, it’s nothing wrong with it, nway it’s just a cigarette and not a “DRUGS” ok?? Unless I’m taking drugs, then only u can say it’s bad and really2 bad things i've done in my life...

I do know smoking is bad and not good for health. I do know the impact or the side effect if we smoke. It can cause lung cancer, heart attack and etc.. .i do know about all that stuff… but I do not know why am I smoking… its pretty complicated to explain…

But I do know how I start smoking? U may laugh if u want, but that’s leads me to this smoking world…. It’s all because of “L.O.V.E”…and yes, I can't stop if u wanna to say that I’m a stupid asshole if I start smoking because of that… and seriously that’s really happened to me...and i'm not proud of it...but nothing can change the history and memories remains forever. For 18 years I haven’t touch or smoke any cigarettes, but “L.O.V.E” leads me to this smoking world and changes everything including my perspective about this lives.. .....Nway, let it be a history of mine..

Oh well! Tomorrow, I’ll be out for treasure hunting to Genting..…Wish me luck eh! :D

So, c u guys after I get back. Till then. Have a lovely weekend dude!! ;)

Sign!

a Tribute to "M"..

::13-06-04::

Firstly, I would like to express my high gratitude to M for being a such wonderful friend and housemate :D . If u all still remembered, I had written some blogs about M in my previous post, u may find the previous post here

Today is M’s birthday – 13th April 2005. So, u’re now 26 years old buddy!! So wake up!!! Hehe.. my only pray for u is moga2 dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki selalu…

Let me think what am I gonna to say about this guy huh? What do I knew about this “Muar” boy.. Hehe..

Basically, his name starts with “Q”, but sometimes I’ve been wondering how hell he get the middle name “M” huh? If I’m still remember, I met him during my Uni days where we’re at the same group – Group 4 at that time. He’s quite a shy guy for a moment, boleh dikategorikan sebagai Lelaki melayu terakhir la gak dulu, but now not ANYMORE… if u read this pal, u know what I mean.. hehe no offense aaaa..:P

Ermm…he used to have this Suzuki Gamma before, but now have been upgraded to Suzuki vs125 – hehe.. it’s a Scooter dude!!! :D Masa blaja dulu, i never get too close with him, because after our pre-u day, we’ve been split from the group.. I took engineering and he took IT courses. Just after we’ve been working and now living in the same roof , then only I get a chance to know him well…

“M” yg ku kenal… seorang lelaki gantenggg ( pinjam ayat indon sket..sbb mamat nih layan indon..) , macho ( hari2 masuk bilik angkat dumbbell.. hehe) tapi penuh misteri…Hahaha….giler ayat tak ingat punya!! :P He’s full of sensational stories.. especially bab kutuk mengutuk atau komen mengomen….boleh bagi kat dia lahhh…ade je idea dia… and gosshh!! My advise to all of you, don’t make him start gossiping.. once he starts…kalah pompuan ok!! Hehe.. Mamat nih minat giler tgk discovery channel ngan animal planet…sometimes tuh boleh duduk berjam-jam layan channel tuh… hehe..

Anyway, he’s one of penyeri suasana kat rumah tuh.. kalau dia takde, rumah tuh maybe sunyi sket kot…sbb yang lain semua buat hal masing2… and memang jarang2 ada kat rumah…especially my roommates…so, most of the time bila kat rumah, I spent a lot of time with “M” compare to others except on weekend… sbb weekend adalah family day for “M” ..Hehe.. ..susah2 ….kawin jek laa…..ini belum kawin pun dah macam org dah kawin jek….so better get married jek laaa…:P

Sempena birthday yg ke 26 nih, there’s only one thing I wanna to request from u my dear friend…… umur dah makin lanjut…so buang kan lah sket perasaan penakut ko tuh sket yer…..dah besar gajah dahh… c’mon laaa …hehe ;)

Btw, whatever it is, who ever you are or what ever u do….. I’ll always treasure my friendship with u mate!! Wish you all the best in your future endeavor and enjoy your happy day today…*wink*

Cheers!

Welcome to Alamanda..

::10-04-05::

--# i had to replace the topic, because i think the previous title was so long..hehe#--

M.O.R.N.I.N.G

Usually I wake up quite late on the weekend, but yesterday, I woke up around 6.30 am because I went for a jogging…weehuuu!!! :D I do remembered , last time I went for a jogging is during my Uni-day I guess.. Haha .. can’t you imagine?? It’s been a few years back…. quite a long time huh!! :D

Actually, I hate jogging very much.. and I specifically don’t know the reason why I always hate to jog . During past days, I’ll always try to escape any activities that involving jogging..Hehe.. But the weird thing is I could play other sports such as futsal/football/hockey etc or even if I had to climb up a hill or mountain, I’ll be ok with it, but to jog??…Nahhhhhhhhh….:D Always say never to jogging… Haha.. .But, yesterday , it was totally magical or should I say miracle?? :P How the hell I could wake up myself early in the morning and went for a jogging….Demnn!! What the hell I was thinking at that moment huh!! Hehehe..

Basically, early planning was to jog around our home area, but then last minute plan changes, so we decide to go to Bukit Jalil. There are 4 of us. Me, M, A and H. M drives us to Bukit Jalil. We reached Bukit Jalil about 7.15am, so, immediately we stretch out our body and start jogging. Bukan apa, kalau lambat2 nanti matahari dah naik, panas la pulak... ;)

After climb up the hills and jog 2 rounds around the lake, I had to stop. Tak larat beb!! Pancitt giler… :D Brape tahun tak jogging… plus it’s been ages since the last time I play futsal, if I’m not mistaken since last hari raya I’ve stop doing any kind of sports activities.. So, korang boleh imagine lah kan … :P then, after jogging we went for breakfast @ Sri Petaling.

A.F.T.E.R.N.O.O.N

Around 1.30pm we’re heading to Alamanda, Putrajaya. Goshh!! It’s been ages too since the last time I went to this mall. Actually, H want to buy a soccer boots at al-ikhsan sports store, so that makes us going there. Kalau tak, toksah harap lah.. hehe..

We reached Alamanda around 2.15pm. Drop by @ our friend shop , N and then heading to the food court. The food court not so bad though, just that it's just a small scale compare to MV or KLCC foodcourt. :D. I had nasi beriyani for lunch. The taste was not so bad, but it’s not so good as my dad’s beriyani..:D Makan kat mana2 pun, it’s still can’t compare with my mom and dad cooking!! Seriously I miss so much their cooking..:(

Right after lunch, we went to the sport store and window-shopping. For me, I just survey a new spectacles prices because I planned to change my specs at the end of this month.. hehe… after a few hours walking, we decide to lepak @ starbucks. Hmm.. short conclusion about alamanda is – It’s a nice place to hang out to those who are like less crowded places like me…:D but for shopping? Hmm.. I would say not so many outlets @ Alamanda compare to MV or KLCC, so less choices left for you to choose and pick. I don’t know about other stuff or "gurly" stuff to be specific..hahaha, but I do checking on particular stuff that is watches. After comparing the prices sell @ alamanda vs MV vs KLCC. MV is still the best. The reason is, let say @ alamanda the price worth RM1.5k, but @ KLCC and MV – the price worth about RM1.39k. But @ Mahkota Parade – I can get less than RM1k…Hehehe * wink**wink*..But it’s all up to you,it’s your money, your decision, the power to make a choice is yours…:D

N.I.G.H.T

Viewing and commentating on Chelsea vs Birmingham match @ Astro which end up Chelsea draw 1-1 with Birmingham…Hehe. Then, continue with my laundry which end up @ 1am. Only then, finally I get to sleep…Oh goshh… what a relief…:D

S-U-N-D-A-Y

As for today, I wake up @ 10am – (Subuh pun terlepas..Oh my gosshh! ). Then, siap2 and went to the office. I got some sms’ess last night saying that my system got problem. So need to verify and troubleshoot it immediately so that other process can continue running. Susah kerja camni, on Saturday and Sunday pun still have to work. For a moment, I wish I had other option dlm masa terdekat ni to change my current job to other job. Hopefully, there’s a better job offer for me out there in the near future... i've been demotivated sgt2 dah ni...hehehe

My sister just called me up. So, I think I shall update this blog later. I’m going to Bangi after this to visit her...Yeay!! So, i guess i see u guys soon! Till then.

Cheers!!

Bandar KotaK..

::06-04-05::

It is 6.15am today when I look at the time this morning .. *sigh .. I need to wake up from my bed and immediately go to the bathroom. If not, I have to wait for my turn if MZ wake up and enter the bathroom first…. Haha….Guess what are we doing every morning? we’re always compete with each other whose is gonna to get into the bathroom first.. :D Sometimes, I feel silly about it but it makes me smile once a while when reminisce on what have we done each day…Ha ha ha.. Perangai macam budak2!!

Yesterday, not so much things happen. A friend sms’es me around 9 am, asking me either I want to have lunch with her or not? Straight away I check on my daily schedule.. and finally….oh damn!! I have shadowing slot with the AC guys… But, nevermind… I know what I have to do.. Hehe.. So, I replied back her sms and asking her where did she want to have a lunch that afternoon? Soon, she replied back.

F : KLCC or city square? Choose one.
Me : Hmm.. ane2 bole…:D
F : Centu bawah pokok je la. Hehe
Me : Ok gak. :P
F : nak makan apa?
Me : apa2 bole…iskk.. Okla, u choose one.. darby park or city square?
F : Bandar kotak!! Hehe
Me : Ok, c u @ bandar kotak. :P
F : Ok c u. Nanti calling2 bila sampai..

So, we end up the conversation and I continue with my work. Around 1:10pm, I met her at City Square, after managed to find a parking lot at the basement cark park.. It took me about 15 minutes to search around the car park to find a free parking space ok?? .. :(

Suddenly, my phone ringing.

Me : Halluu..
F : Where r u?
Me : jap..jap..stuck kat basement. Tader parking la.
F : nampak J*S tak? Hehe..
Me : nampak terselit.
F : Org dah sampai dah..
Me : Ok. Jap. I’ll call back later k!
F : ok

Fyi, I’m rarely go to the city square.. Berpusing2 nak cari tempat parking satu hal, nih nak carik tempat makan plak.. *sigh . Once I met her, she asking me “nak makan apa? Melayu ke tak?” Straight away, I smile and says “ Melayu”…
She smile and say “ OK, we go to this place. Come.” I don’t know how spontaneous I say “Melayu” to her at that time.. .Ha ha.. Maybe I don’t want her to “membebel” about choosing a place to go.. and dia pun tak banyak cakap seolah2 mcm dah paham dengan kerenah aku yg susah nak pilih tempat….Ha ha

By the way, what I want to stress it out here is, again... I had this kind of problem to choose the place or foods to eat… What to do huh?? :D

I had soto ayam for lunch and she get laksa johor. But then, she said the laksa is not so nice, but still habis gak dia makan...:P Kebuluran lah tuh.. Hehe...Then, I said to her " If u wanna to eat the best laksa in town, my mom is really good at it..." :D ..Maybe one day i can invite her to come over my house and ask my mom to cook laksa for her. Baru dia tau kehebatan Aunty Bad caner..and baru dia tau how marvellous my mom laksa tuh nanti... ;)

It’s been a while since the last time we met. So, there must be a lot of stuff to be catching up. Hehe.. among the stories that we’ve been discuss is about the tremors that hit Malaysia a few weeks back. What makes me smile on the stories is how hell she pack up her stuff just in case there’s something happened on that night...hehe.. Guess what things she packed up on that night huh?? we'll see..

1. purse – ok, considerable
2. keys – ok..
3. camera – erk…hmm
4. passport – erk..hmm

Err....If we think logically, nothing wrongs with the camera and passport but the only reason why she packed the camera and passport too is because she’ll be flying off to Australia for vacation this june. So, if anything happened, she still can be fly off to Australia she said. Boleh pakai tak reason tuh?? Hehe.. Sabo jek la…so, childdish!! hehehe.. and that makes a point why i can get along with her till now... :D Terhibur kadang2 tgk sifat childdish dia tuh...and that makes me comfortable with her all this while.Tapi jangan tgk time dia tgh angin.. ( Penah ke aku tgk dia time dia tgh angin eh?? ..hehehe) ... Menakutkan ok!!! ( nih dia yg citer dulu2 la..if i'm not mistaken.. :) )

We've been friend since our primary school lagi ok.. can u believe it? Klakar kadang2..where we can still keep in touch with our old schoolmate ( to be specific : standard 1 - primary schoolmate !!!..hahaha) . Nasib bukan kindergarten ker... :D

The moral of the story : sometimes when people becomes panic, a lot of things can happen .. hehehe… Sabo jek la..… >;)