A Memorable Moment with Mithochondria..

First and foremost, i don't know how to start ... i've been thinking so deeply either i shud write it here or just leave the page blank... however, i've decided to write it here as this will be the only way/place for me to keep all those memories remains ..

This time, i would like to introduce to a friend which her call signed known as "Mithochondria" a.k.a "mitho".... such a unique name huh!!.. but to be truth, from my perspective...she's really unique with her own way... How did i get to know her, how it's all started???..Well, i might say its a long stories ... have u ever thinks that someone can admiring or falling in love to someone just from the what he/she write/throw his/her opinion by expressing his/her opinion in unique and sweetest way.... can u imagine that? :D

i seldomly writing to the blog, but i do love reading some of the blogs and always been a silent reader .....

Ok lets go back to the story, i first met or shud i say... the first time i saw "mitho" was on the late august 2005 where we're in the same course... Since the registration day, i've been observing her but i do not have a guts to approach her at that point of time. Being an introvert perhaps, plus considering she's one of the "hotspot" girl in my group.... it was difficult for me to start a conversation with others especially those who's in other gender...

Anyway, after the short course end in mid of September 2005 and after getting our first posting letter, finally, i managed to get her "actual" name and start look up for her news/updates which ever i can even from far..... and being in the IT working environment for the past 3 1/2 years, normally i'll start "googling" any info related to her from the WWW and managed to get some info relating to her which is not supporting enough for me to describe generally what kind of person she is...

But when one fine day, i do come accross with the article/thoughts of her on someone blog mentioning about the meaning of "merdeka day" and "racial integration" in her own eyes/perspectives... since there, i had started falling in love with her... :)... i wish i can get to know her better and deeper one day but the problem is how shud i express this feelings to her? i cant simply go and say "i like her" am i?... its need to be express in a unique way.. isn't it?

to cut it short, after a few months separated due to different job places, we have gathered again and i'm really glad and thank to God that she was in the same group with me... perhaps this is what people called "kalau dah jodoh tak kemana..". My "doa" was granted when i was grouped with her in a small group during the outdoor modules in the first semester. We had shares some moments .. sharing our own perspectives about life, family..etc under the moonlight while people was sleeping but we're both just talking, talking and talking until sunrise.....It was the most enjoyable moment in my life and this memorable moments can't be erase from my life journal...... but still, at that point of time.... i'm still not have the guts to tell her that i'm really like her...

However, there's malay quote's saying that "ku sangka hujan hingga ke petang, rupanya panas di tengahari"....sometimes, what ever we wish for can't be granted perhaps for certain reasons.. and we have to live with "qada' dan qadar"... which the consequences to this quote was i get to know that a friend of mine have the same feelings to her too......or to be exact.... most of the guys in my group were also admiring her .. perhaps due to her character i guess...

ok.. going back to original story... when knowing that a friend had taken one step further by approaching her, i've made a decision to back-off .... takkan nak potong line kawan aite?... for me, if we love someone let it goes, when she's come back then it's yours..... or perhaps this old-fashioned approach is not valid and viable anymore?.. hmmm..

she was attached with my friend for a few months....... but unfortunately, few months after the graduation day... i heard that they both go separate ways... i reallly dont have a clue of what had happened and it's not my business to ask what had happened... for me, if someone come to u and tell u something about his/her story/problem...then only u can further ask for clarification... i also heard that she has met someone else after that at her workplace... so, i've made a decision to move on and i'm happy for her as long as i know that she was happy with the one that she choose to be her other half...

the last time, i met her again was during our friend's wedding at gombak.. she's still look the same... and still sweet as usual... but we just managed to have a short conversation..

Then.. last sunday... i met her again and we've shared a lots of things..... everything happened without a proper plan.. it was happened when i'm suddenly, just get my phone and give her an smsses ...and she replied... then we decided to meet up since its been long time since we both meet each other..... and the day itself, she's still look stunning except with a new hair cut.. before this, we never have the opportunity to meet and go out together just the two of us... but today was a remarkable day and i noticed that both of us shares a few things in common...from outdoors to even on the choice of ice cream ..hohoho...:P it was an unforgetable moment and an extra mile for my friendship with her... but sometimes i feel weird and awkward....

If i'm still single and available....... i'll propose her to be my other half at that point of time without looking back anymore... but unfortunately, too bad that i'm not single and not available anymore :P... i've already engaged with someone and within a few months.. i'll get married with someone which is i'm really loved and care the most now....... it's just a bit late and if she do comes earlier .... perhaps things would be different...

what ever it is, i'll pray to God that she would find someone that who's really care and loved her for who she is ... because for me, she's too naive ... i don't want someone to take advantage on her and hopefully she made the right choice for her "mr.right".

I just hope that the bonding of our friendship will last forever evonthough she's not in the same "league" anymore...... insyaAllah...